photo by Jennifer Santaniello
desire is proof of power.
we often equate desire to lofty dreams. or “if only”. desire is not an “if only” thing or a lofty dream. rather desire is the very evidence of our power to see manifest that “lofty dream” or “if only” reality. I’ll also put it like this: is seeing believing, or is believing seeing? it is both. it just depends upon which side you choose to stand. both are reality. except one is force and one is power. one is fear and one is love.
if we were not capable of fulfilling our desire, the desire itself would cease to exist. let me also point out what desire is NOT — desire is not envy, jealousy or coveting. envy, jealousy or coveting is the observation of and committment to lack, and the experience of a void within us that we refuse to look at and so rather we make another person the convenient option of focus. desire, on the other hand, is an internal life force which we may confuse though with the latter. here is how to tell the difference.
it is similar to my post about “competition”. first of all, there is no such thing. just read the post. but the difference between desire and envy or jealousy is the very fact that one surge emanates from our core, and the other surge emanates from someone else’s core and we experience or try to wear that as our own because we are too afraid to feel the actual desire and act upon it. for the weak and or lazy, feeling desire but not acknowledging it and therefore instead focusing upon someone else’s life or status is the very fact of spiritually bypassing our own power (desire). but either way, we each DO have access to desire. each and every one of us. those of us who say that we do not have desire live in a comparative state, not because we do NOT have desire, but because we have chosen already not to act upon that desire and therefore claiming not to have it is our excuse to avoid defeat (or perceived defeat). take a look around, take a listen around and see what your “friends”, colleagues or family members have to say about others’ success/posts in life — they will immediately reveal to you whether they have chosen to acknowledge their desire or not, and often why, without even knowing how transparent they are.
which reminds me. earlier this week I had a reading with someone. I have enjoyed reading with her because she keeps it blunt. we joked around briefly about how we laugh / don’t get it when someone asks us “so who did you train under?” LOL! as if you can “train” to be a healer or an intuitive. well, you can’t. by the way. you can, however, flex that muscle more and more. but no, internal power is not “learned” rather it is cultivated — FROM WITHIN (don’t ever ask me “who taught me” how to do xyz because it doesn’t exist! also one of the reasons that I do not “teach” healing. ok end rant.). anyhow, she had commented (again) today on certain people wanting what I have, and I had to laugh because I truly do not get it — since I see each of us with our divine power and desire, if we so choose to look at it (lots of unconscious reasons why we might not choose to look at it). it got me thinking about my “there is no such thing as competition” post from a couple of years ago, and the fact that for me, life has always been me against myself. not me against what others are doing. if I had time to compare myself, I would never be where I am. one of the reasons I suppose patients find me relatable during/after sessions, is that I don’t understand or see a hierarchy (except for one that is determined based on how we treat others — when we treat others poorly, we suffer and there is certainly a hierarchy of power versus force involved there). when I see an individual, in person or remotely in general in life, I see their highest potential. we each have our own thing going on, but what I am really trying to say is that we each have our own DESIRE going on. again, if we were to dare to look.
desire can also feel like a longing — this is good. this means that you already have your finger on the pulse, and you are just suffering through some kind of imminent initiation before you begin to take the steps of your desire and actualize it. the Universe doesn’t just hand things out, fyi. we go through hell, often, to actualize desires. but the hell of actualizing them versus the hell of pretending that we don’t have them — well, I don’t know, you decide. I know which one I prefer.
the very presence of desire as it might relate to “there must be something more” or “I feel like I am in the wrong place” or “I should be doing something else” is healthy when we are focused upon ourselves versus what others are doing. that is healthy desire. and that, is the very evidence of a future that has actually already happened, yet just not been experienced in a linear 3d cognitive fashion. the very presence of desire suggests a knowing that the soul already has of the many great things it has accomplished. for me, recognizing my current and ongoing desires as fuel and fodder for building the life of my dreams is very helpful versus viewing them as a lack or a void and turning my attention to another person/s for comparison. and the truth is, that there would be no truth in that comparison anyhow.
Desire is the manifestation of Power. power comes from life force. life force comes from a place beyond logic — life force comes from the spore of creation itself. the opposite of desire is comparison, and that comes from fear. fear comes from lack. lack comes from a place of logic. logic comes from the absence of consciousness and present tense being — the opposite of desire.
don’t be afraid of your desires. well, be afraid of your desires — because the fear will actually never go away in order for you to act upon them (it’s not supposed to!). but do not be afraid of the fear around your desires. they are leading you straight into manifestation if you are willing to leap so that the net can appear.