clearly 1st world problem solving dissection here… but nonetheless interesting, I think.. there are interesting ties between difficult life experiences and how our subconscious tries to heal them later in life.
in 7th grade, I had a “best friend”. at the beginning of 7th grade, an unknown person began writing on all of the bathroom walls about me — all kinds of things ranging from about my family to about me personally.. basic lies and humiliation. almost weekly, my “best friend” and I would go to the guidance counselor to help me with whomever was graffiti-ing the walls with my name. we couldn’t seem to figure out who, or why. I didn’t have any known enemies. at the end of that year, my “best friend” moved out of state. the following year, one of the girls in our little group broke down and told me that it was, indeed, my “best friend” who wrote about me on every wall she could find. I remember feeling disbelief, hurt and broken trust. this “best friend” was my biggest supporter…
fast forward, over the years, I subconsciously developed a fear of “exposure”. to what, I could not define. it crept up any time I was about to be public in any way — with business, public speaking, performing, etc. I feared being seen or known by the public. some of this is probably inherent (past life, current life in other examples) somehow, but it wasn’t until recently that I realized how it directly tied to my 7th grade experience. when I was on a soap opera a number of years ago and began getting bit exposure parts in film/tv, I remember feeling physically sick before I would watch the show air. my body would cramp up and I almost couldn’t watch. I also couldn’t read the comments about my character from the die-hard show fans. I didn’t pursue an agent and was afraid to take it too far. the whole reason I pursued network relationships (ABC) was so that I would have a platform from which to present important material down the road…it was simply a platform I would go back to later while I spent time on my heart — my healing and energy work — to then present my heart through film, television and multimedia and reach as many people as possible.
when I established my energy medicine practice roughly 5 years ago, I separated it from my corporate past (finance and corporate barter), my entertainment career, etc. I had been working privately with people, beneath the radar, not wanting at all to be public. I felt that healing work should be anonymous and I was already satisfying much of my time this way. I battled, in my mind, as we all do, human judgement. I didn’t put up any photo of myself on my energy medicine site(s) for the first two years, and I wanted people to judge me solely on my energy over the phone and in person. it worked out really well for me and I was able to establish a thriving practice based off of soul and spirit alone; no human ego or judgement. I did realize, however, that if I were to be a voice for others, I would need to get over this fear…as I was eventually going to be public whether I liked it or not. I hadn’t yet realized how my subconscious (i.e. fear of being public) was reacting to such an old event that took place in the 7th grade…
earlier this year a woman became obsessed with me – as in she couldn’t call, text or email me enough. nothing was enough. out of hundreds of people I have seen for sessions over the years, this one was off the charts. I had battled my intuition on even accepting her into my life in the first place, as I spent days considering whether to meet her in person on or not. I truly wanted to help her and others, but I was always very smart about who to not attempt to help – so many people are looking for not only someone to blame, but for the next victim of their own disturbed consciousness. given that I had never encountered this prior, I felt safe and protected from all people and things (and, I was right! though it didn’t appear this way initially). when she subsequently went to town on me in a variety of publicly slanderous, preposterous, odd, sadly comedic and yet hurtful ways, it all made sense — she was the 12 year old girl I had become so shell-shocked by so long ago!; she was living her out for me so that I could release an old, no longer relevant fear within. what a huge lightbulb moment. as she spent weeks campaigning against me in a variety of ways, I began to see how this very old energy had lived and breathed inside of me. it was a deeply rooted subconscious energy I didn’t realize was there until it was gone! this deeply unhinged person had done me the biggest favor I could receive in such an ugly cloak; she became my old fear and released it from within me.
none of us enjoys moving through an old process, but it is interesting how an old process will come up to liberate us. what I felt, and have been able to feel, is a huge space that was previously occupied by unnecessary fear or sadness. we shall never judge or discount the negative behavior of others or relative circumstances in our lives — far more often than not, they are weeding out old and dead roots that don’t need to litter our beautiful garden. when faced with this we must breath deeply and look for the analogy of something that is rotten and old…see what it reminds us of? what it is reminding us of is the thing that we are finally walking out the door and never letting back in. the new doors that are opening are beyond the most wild and fulfilling dreams. if and when we truly listen, and don’t get caught in momentary fear or ego, we are able to see that every person, place and thing is part of a Universal blueprint and design to take us to our destiny — even when it looks or feels ugly.
[As a reminder, all of the topics and many of the excerpts listed here on my blog, fortunately, will be compiled in cohesive and edited fashion in my future eBooklets and book. For now, please enjoy here the raw and unpolished bones that are my skeleton! *Names have been changed to ensure anonymity]
“Uncording” is something that I incorporate into most, if not every, session I perform. Some of my patients are aware of what energetic cording is, and others are not. In short, we share umbilical-like cords with every person we have ever interacted with. Some cords are, obviously, stronger than others. Strong cords are particular to blood relatives, persons we grew up/shared physical space with, close friends and lovers. When two energies are unequal (all humans are created equal, all energies are NOT created equal), one energy must re-calibrate (keep in mind energy flows FROM TOP to bottom) to match the second energy. With this brief but hopefully understandable explanation (much can be read on the internet about corded energies) I lead into a recent patient experience with uncording that I think perfectly illustrates what happens to corded (and subsequently uncorded) energy between two people…
Michele* came to see me for the usual reasons people do…feeling stuck, feeling depressed, feeling as though she was going against her calling, yet not sure what move to make, and so on and so on…
Prior to my session with Michele, I felt a strong pulling and twisting in my gut, as well as a strong and dull ache down my right arm. For me, this indicated an intense struggle with a male energy, and the over attachment of such energy from said male to my patient. When Michele arrived and I began dissecting her immediate personal life, I immediately saw the male energy at hand present itself; though the template for such was set by her father, I saw the current grappling energy in the form of her coworker. It is always important to know from which direction/individual most of this visceral energy imprint is coming from, so that I know how to best “attack” it. Usually, the physiological symptoms I was having around Michele would indicate a father or father figure, which would tailor our session’s approach to a particular fashion. However, being that the physiological symptoms I absorbed were not representative of a father or father figure (though they so strongly mimicked such, especially being that the origin for this energy to even birth itself was reflective of her father), a very specific combination of cognitive AND energetic approaches and execution were in order.
After tackling the cognitive aspects of this tricky and “hidden” dynamic between my patient and her coworker, I let her know that every move/change she made would be felt by the male energy in discussion. It is always difficult to fully explain to someone unless they have already experienced, in all senses, an energy attachment and subsequent detachment of such. I let her know that what I was seeing was something stronger than the usual corded energy — it looked like a dark, red mass…an entity of it’s own, between two people. I saw a circle with arrows spinning in a clockwise position. For me, this indicated the depth of the cords between these two people, which was only strengthened by precipitating factors with Michele’s own father. I saw that it would be rather difficult to break free of this energy, and that both parties would really feel it once I began the work. The work was necessary, because this entity was not only feeding off of my patient (and her coworker), but was clogging and confusing most parts of her psyche. Strong cords, and especially strong energetic attachments, can cause all kinds of problems!
When we began the physical part of the session, my hand hovered over her solar plexus (abdomen). I saw and felt a thick, molasses-type of energy. It felt dense, temporarily impenetrable and slow. As I worked on her entire auric and physical field, the energy loosened a bit. I felt slightly nauseous, and knew this would be a factor for her. None of my patients, prior to Michele, had thrown up after a powerful session, but they had let me know about intense and detoxifying bowel movements.
When I felt the work was “complete”, I explained to Michele what I saw and how I felt. She was feeling particularly relaxed and clear, and she went home. I reminded her again that her coworker would be directly affected by my session with her, and to be mindful of that on all levels.
The next afternoon, I spoke with Michele over the phone and she let me know that the impact of our session was more tangible than she thought it would be: that evening she threw up. The next morning she threw up again. She called her coworker and her job to let them know that she would be working from home that day. When she spoke with her coworker, he let her know “I don’t know what I ate, I have been throwing up all morning”. She knew immediately that they were sharing the break in energy of this once-strong entity/attachment/cord. What was happening? Each of them was releasing a dense, beast of a blockage that served neither one of them, namely my patient. This might be best understood in psychology as an unhealthy or dangerous “codependent relationship”; and it had manifested itself physically into two people’s — and the lives of those close to them — lives. To feel this experience of cord cutting is one thing…to see it is another thing…and to share it with another person is priceless.
This, folks, is the way energy works. We must never underestimate the presence and power of attachment/cords to others as they appear on all levels — seen and unseen. We must ask ourselves what is serving us and what is not…and think about some necessary uncording to live the most “free” and positive lives possible.
[As a reminder, all of the topics and many of the excerpts listed here on my blog, fortunately, will be compiled in cohesive and edited fashion in my upcoming book. For now, please enjoy here the raw and unpolished bones that are my skeleton!]
One of the fascinating aspects of being a true empath is the actual physiological experience of physically/mentally/emotionally experiencing someone ELSE’s thoughts/feelings (of physical, psychological, emotional and so on). For this post, I try to focus more specifically on the physical.
First of all, WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? It means that our human bodies, all of them, are built like antennas. We are either tuned in or tuned out, with varying degrees in between. The more tuned in we are, the more we “pick up” — but then the more tuned in we are, the more we have to … TUNE IN! What do I mean? I mean that once we recognize we are actually picking up experiences (for the sake of this particular post, I will keep it limited to physical symptoms) that belong to another person, we are then put in a position where we must interpret said recognition. WHY? Because the Universe has messages for all of us, all day long, to help guide us on our individual and collective paths. We can’t judge or control it, it just is. Why else? Because our ability to FEEL from a distance lets us know that we are way more than we have been programmed to believe…and this is important on many levels, especially as we advance in “science” and “medicine”. There is a current important and strong gap being bridged between spirit and science/medical. When we begin to learn that there are “other” explanations for “medical diagnoses” (that often come from persistent physical+ symptoms such as I am describing here) and so on, people can begin ditching the unneeded and harmful meds that are thrown at them out of habit/laziness/lack of information…and begin digging deeper into the actual/real message at hand!
WHAT TO DO WITH IT? If you don’t know where/who it is coming from, start to try to know. As it happens more and more, pay attention to who you are speaking with or feeling from a distance. If you think it is yours, but you are not sure, write it down. Pay attention to who calls/emails/texts you within that a 30-minute window (usually post-sensation/awareness). It might be a high stream of energy, or a low one; neither is “bad” or “good”, they each just are. First figuring out where/who it is coming from is important; it may be from/for your mom who calls you 15 minutes later, or it might be from/for the woman you sit down next to at Starbucks in 30 seconds; You will get better and better at identifying the source of this energy. What you will begin to be able to do are a few important things 1) discern what is NOT yours 2) discern who is “reaching out to you” energetically 3) give a 3rd party an indication of something that is perhaps going on with them. This kind of intuition is purposeful, though we may not realize it at the time.
For me, personally, this occurs most often 1) when a patient calls me for the first time 2) the night before a patient session 3) during a patient session 4) right after a patient session 5) all of the time 😉 I notice 1) – 4) the most, though. When someone calls me, asking about my practice, I almost immediately get a feeling/sensation in my physical body. My physical vessel starts going off like a radio. I then narrow down the part of my body that is being signaled, and I notice that there are about 20+ different types of signals I get in that specific body part…then, out of experience with hundreds of people, I am able to intuit exactly what it means. I will know right away what emotional baggage or experience is clogged within a person (sometimes down to the year/a specific age), even if they believe it is only medical. This, in turn, sets the stage for some magic when we decide to work together…
I have kept this very brief and hopefully coherent…but my point here is that if you are an empath/feel people physically or otherwise and they are not even near you (or even if they are!, it is just harder to interpret intuitively when they are not), try to get clearer on the fact that 1) the feelings may not be “yours” — so it doesn’t mean you are “dying” of some disease when your stomach hurts you 10x per day! 2) you are being accessed all day long, even just through thought, and it is important to stay extra healthy/tuned in so that nothing can access you for too long! we can get run down in this way 3) as humans we are being guided to help others! you can give others information once you get good at interpreting this kind of information. It will eventually become undebatable, and most importantly helpful, when you are able to see clearly what is going on with someone either near or far in proximity to you, and relate that information to them in a way that highlights old emotions/experiences that have physically manifest themselves for hopeful release.
The experiences I speak of here are actually incredibly primitive, versus “new agey”. They are nothing weird or to be afraid of. Many people don’t speak about these things because it makes them feel isolated, as if it is all in their head, and as if they are the only ones experiencing them. Give yourself the opportunity to understand the experience of “feeling” someone else’s physical experience, and you will be surprised at just how good you get…and how much good can come from it.
one of my personal experiences with integrity
I want to comment on personal integrity. it sounds like a simple concept, but it is often not an easy one. we go against ourselves many times in life, before we realize it based on exterior consequences with people and things around us. not too long ago, my entire physical world collapsed; I was losing my apartment, couldn’t afford to eat for days at a time, and had to “borrow” toilet paper from public restrooms (the long and detailed story of “how” I got there is divine, synchronistic, and will be kept separate from this post, and will surely be in my book)…that said, I was still in a space where I was afraid to share my energy work in a public fashion. a loud voice kept screaming at me to share my work beyond quiet referrals and endless non-profit work. when I finally “agreed” to listen to the Universe and I began sharing more publicly what I did, my whole world began to shift. this was step ONE of my personal integrity — having the courage to make myself vulnerable to the only thing that really mattered to me…helping others…even if I might be criticized for it or people close to me didn’t understand. then came step TWO: I knew that I couldn’t/shouldn’t work with everyone (let alone spend time with just anyone). so, while sometimes starving and having my phone or internet shut off, I would say NO to working with certain people — because I knew intuitively it was not the right time for them or simply not the right session. I was looking out for the higher and greater good of all parties instead of my own primal needs. this was not easy, and I questioned myself. however, after a few instances of these types of difficult integrity-based decisions, it was like a lightning rod hit my life…it lit up. with THE most amazing patients, acquaintances, friends, etc. it was as if, at least temporarily, the hard lessons were over. I am not saying I am perfect at making the perfect decisions 100% of the time, but what I AM saying is that integrity is HUGE in our lives. when we go against ourselves due to fear or insecurity of being alone or “without”, we screw ourselves even harder. often the hardest decisions bring the biggest rewards. INTEGRITY…a true survival tool. we must ask ourselves, daily, what that REALLY means.
The name Lana is a pseudonym, ensuring patient confidentiality. The following experience is written from my vantage point, that of the medical intuitive/healer (aka Spiritual Crime Solver!). Typically, patients come to me with one or several reasons as to why they need my help. Upon examining them, many things happen…and they often walk out with answers they didn’t realize they were looking for in the first place.
I met Lana in my Columbus Circle office in 2013. Like a number of other folks, she had come across my website and became generally interested, hoping to address her life’s purpose and issues with procrastination as well as general disinterest in her then corporate career. She didn’t have the usual pressing crisis, such as an impossible interpersonal relationship or undying stress. Lana felt a general malaise. In addition, Lana was what I call a “non-believer” — someone who is quite quantitative and linear in thought, operating from what I call the “programmed” world. She was acutely intelligent, multifaceted/talented, multilingual, healthy, zesty and mid-thirties.
As we sat down and began talking, I followed my “standard” protocol, which consists of both internal and external physiological self-inventory; this type of self-inventory is what describes the patient’s actual disposition, whether they are consciously or only subconsciously aware of it. I felt an initial cloudiness in my own thoughts (reflecting a current state of Lana’s) as well as a subsequent difficulty articulating some of the more “other-worldly” and metaphysical concepts by which I both approach and “tune into” another person’s life. It was at this point that I would attempt to articulate the disposition I had that entire day — from the time I woke up — in preparation and awareness of Lana’s session.
I neglected to physically record much of my aforereferenced disposition on that day, so some of it will be missing from this session share. However I remember waking up the morning of this session and feeling as though I had to somehow brilliantly bridge an ivy league, scientific, cognitive mind with an ethereal, yogic, shamanic metaphysical mind. Not an uncommon experience for me, it felt like two different worlds (as well as sides of the brain) were expected to collide for me in order to demonstrate a rational, evidential explanation and solution for my patient that would not only expand her consciousness, but address underlying dormant issues as well as create tangible solutions. That feeling only increased as we sat down together during “intake”. The intake aspect of my sessions can last anywhere from 2-3.5 hours, and it consists of turning over every stone in that person’s life and looking at it from the combined and well-integrated following types of angles: clairsensient/clairvoyant/clairaudient (as those “unseen” angles are where my first point of awareness draws from), logical/intellectual/cognitive, emotional, physical and spiritual.
When a person like myself — who is versed in and immersed in the metaphysical and energetic fields — sits down for the first time with someone who has never heard the terms or notions of the metaphysical, energetic or even holistic fields, it can be overwhelming for the person (in this case, the patient). As I asked Lana questions such as the names of her immediate family members, friends and past significant others, I was as usual downloaded with the feeling as if I knew them and they were right in the room beside us. I recall asking more questions than giving information, so as not to put her off given that this was her first experience. We talked for miles about her general dissatisfaction in this life as it related to her career, soul’s purpose and hypothetical but not-as-important romantic livelihood. I could see immediately that she was like so many others I had met — she fit in with her colleagues at work and her friends, but yet she was different. Exactly how different I had yet to explain or show her, but her purpose was different. Her purpose was unconventional, at least in comparison to the linear life she had carved out for herself. When I begin to explain to someone for the first time of what I see that lies beneath, in their soul, I prepare for resistance or fear; resistance and fear are normal reactions, but in my practice with the patients I choose to work with they are minimal in degree. I saw immediately that she was a wise, wise soul that had been living dormant within a human body. I explained that to her in so many words, and she did not reject this notion. I might add that she was/is not gullible, naive or weak in any sense of those words; in fact, she is quite the opposite. I did, though, feel as well that given her high-intellect and capability for reasoning (given her own learned and programmed basis for such) it would take something close to miraculous to convince her of her unconventional and, for lack of a better word coming to mind right now, honorable imminent post in this lifetime of hers. It would be this post-taking, I knew, that would change her life; if I could just Open Her Eyes…
After we spoke for miles as I do with all of my patients, she laid down for our energy work. I approach each patient differently, mostly through unexplainable guidance/intuition and experience. As I began “working” on her, my hand was immediately drawn from the chakra point of her third eye to her actual eyes. When someone is on the verge of opening their third eye and spirit wants me to help them along, I feel it strongly and know it strongly. As I worked on her third eye, my hand could not stay in place for more than a second before being pulled over her actual eyes. It was in this location that I felt lightning bolts of energy shooting through the middle of my hand. This normally happens to me during a session in a myriad of ways, but this type of pull was different — and it was accompanied by a passing voice (not an audible/hallucinatory voice, but a voice in one’s own head that passes as a mere thought or idea). This voice became louder as it said “Make Her See… Open Her Eyes…”. At this point in my practice, I might have normally written this off as an overactive mind on my part…but the forceful pull of her actual eyes to my hand and the recurring voice activated a profound curiosity in me. Simultaneously, I began to see an old, wise man…a sage, a shaman, a person of knowledge. I blinked several times to recognize her actual face from this lifetime, as it seemed to vacillate back and forth between Lana’s face and an image of a seer from another time. I completed the energy work on the rest of her physical body and let her “wake up” when I was done. She had not gone “under” into another realm, nor was that my intention, but going under is quite a common theme that my patients experience – even first-timers.
As Lana came-to, we discussed other important and solution-relevant aspects of the energy work that would fuel her tangible steps in addressing what plagued her (as discovered during intake). She seemed intrigued by the energy work in general, as she experienced the relaxing and detoxifying symptoms that are associated with my work. Given her very limited background on absolutely everything I have written here, I was initially hesitant to tell her about the loud physical and ethereal experience I had with her eyes. At the last moment, I told her “this may not make sense, but I can not stop thinking about this…and it may make sense to you long down the road, but I have to say this…” and then I told her about what I had felt during our 1.5 hours of energy work. She became pensive for a bit and then paused, telling me “well…this is going to sound strange…” (nothing at Reiki Therapy by Elaine sounds strange!) “but for the first time ever, I went to a psychic early this year…and she told me that I had been a wise, old, blind seer in my past life”. I was stunned. As I looked at her, we both recognized the significance of this experience, initially me more so than her. As I attempt here to re-state the experiences of that day in writing, there is no justice done to credit the loud and raw nature of the message that spirit was sending to me/us.
I am not certain what part of our session drew her back in to see me at least half a dozen more times, but I have to believe it was the mutual experience related to her eyes. I know that had that not happened, I may have never seen her again. Since that day, while working together numerous times now, she has pursued multiple paths toward higher learning in the energy medicine, shamanistic, holistic chiropractic, holistic healing and metaphysical worlds. Not-so-ironically, she is obtaining a high-level psychotherapeutic degree while pursuing the polar opposite of “mainstream” cognitive development and healing. I continue to see her a year and a half later, and she looks like the weight of the world has left her shoulders…her subconscious mind and soul have spoken and been heard. The world is about to birth a “new” true leader and bridge between current old-world medicine and psychotherapy, and modern cutting-edge intuitive energetic therapy.
Brian Weiss’ book “Many Lives Many Masters” suddenly makes all of the sense in the world to me – in first-person experience. This would not be my last experience, or even the most profound, with a seasoned soul, gregariously poking through it’s current human vessel.
This is very powerful. ‘Rejection’ (which doesn’t exist, it is simply perceived rejection) is never negative. It is a navigation tool that puts us where we need to be at exactly the right time. Sometimes it puts important events or people in our life on hold, so that our connection to that person/job/place is even stronger when the time is right.
There is no such thing as rejection. Try looking at this notion with a different pair of eyes and see how it changes things in your life for the better.