the first spiritual speaker I ever heard — and how it changed my life in an INSTANT

photo by my beautiful patient Babita Patel

I did not grow up with the internet. in my day, even as a teenager, one went to the library and borrowed books to learn about any/all subjects they were not taught at home. there were no cell phones. access to information was…limited relative to our 2017 experience.

at birth, I had a predisposition to understanding and experiencing all things nonlinear, intangible and multidimensional. however, I had no outer world context or access through which to cultivate this intrinsic understanding and experience.

when I was 24, after my own “dark night of the soul” period, I heard Caroline Myss’ “Anatomy of the Spirit”. and it changed my life. it was everything that my soul always knew, but my cognitive linear mind had never heard before. my soul had heard it many times, experienced it many times, and practiced it many times. I would drive around in my car, during my first on-the-road B2B sales job, and listen to her tapes over and over again. I knew immediately that I had to bring my innate understandings and experiences to the outer world, and I had NO IDEA how to do it/how to present it. at this time, social media was not in effect either. I can remember KNOWING that I could help change a life, if only I could manage the context in which to present such. I also knew that I was still young, and not many people would want help from someone in their 20s. so, I continued my journey…I continued to expand creatively, I worked various intense jobs in finance/corporate barter/advertising, and I worked in film and TV to prep the vessel that would be used in the future for my “message”. I just kept…moving toward something.

I went through some more extreme deaths of self, and I immersed myself in listening to and absorbing all that my core already knew. it was like music to my ears, magic to my heart. I felt relief. I felt connected. I didn’t care if I had any friends or not, because the truth that was audibly reaching my ears was all that I needed.

the first time I heard “Anatomy of the Spirit” — I think I was like 15 minutes in — I both cried and fell asleep. in my car. engine running, book on tape playing. when I see people through my work, I can see similar responses within them as we engage. sometimes it just takes one person, just for a moment, to create a domino effect in us that has been waiting a lifetime to happen. that is how I felt about Caroline’s material. and, it is not the kind of material that one can share or receive unless they are truly predisposed to it. otherwise, the mainstream and collective consciousness would be light-years beyond where it is at this point. it is not information that one can “teach” — rather it is information that one can translate so that the person who is listening can REMEMBER.

I am grateful to Caroline and to the Universe for putting me in the path of her materials, not because they taught me, but because they helped me REMEMBER. from there on out I was able to expand at rapid speed, into everything that I already was. each of us has particular and different gifts, but these are gifts intrinsic to our soul. we can not “learn” them, we can not sell them, and we can not replicate them — we can only remember them. that is why one person will seemingly “do well” in an intangible arena, and another person not so much. there is no faking it in the realm where the soul and spirit reside, and connect through the body.

here is an article that I just stumbled upon, from the Huffington Post in 2014, with Caroline Myss:
Caroline Myss/Huffington Post