how it feels on both the tangible and intangible planes when someone close to you dies

how it feels on both the tangible and intangible planes when someone close to you dies:

clearly the following is just my experience. I’ve had it as well, as a surrogate via many patients of mine when their close loved ones (or unloved ones) physically die.

the only thing that dies is the physical body. consciousness is an entirely different energy, and it exists WHILST a person is alive, in various forms depending upon many different factors. therefore, when we are or have been very close to someone and then they physically die, we may experience both their tangible and intangible process in addition to our own. our experience of this, also depends upon many factors.

recently someone who I loved very much – and who loved me very much – physically died. I don’t care to publicize it in the way that many do, because it’s not really about that person at that point — rather it’s typically tragedy porn…it’s about the person sharing the tragedy. and typically, it aligns with that of the classic hum ho complainer – the person who is ALWAYS complaining about someTHING…for sympathy. disrespecting someone’s actual life by making it about me, is not something I am into. with that said, I have other ways or my own ways of honoring a life of another person. one of those ways is by sharing my sacred connection and experience to them and of them on a deep soul level.

relationships are complicated. people are at different stages of development, and at different thresholds of mental wellness. sometimes, those relationships insert their way into other and otherwise healthy relationships. we are only capable of hearing/seeing/believing what makes us feel safe, which is whatever makes sense to the “rational” (although often irrational!) mind. there were various forces at play, inserting themselves or rather I should say attemptedly inserting themselves between myself and my loved one. knowing this, I navigated that relationship with particular care. I’ll start from the beginning.

the first person I ever felt a valid, genuine connection to in my life, is the subject of this article. I could feel and relate to their intuition, their ability to “know” things without sounding crazy, their random decisions to cancel family trips because they “saw” a car accident happen, their “seeing” their child have an accident before there was internet and drop everything to rush to the scene, and so on. I appreciated their love of art, and their talent for it. I appreciated their ability to live their life — and advice to me to live my life — without allowing others to influence their/my decisions. they were my biggest cheerleader to the best of their ability.

when their partner died two decades ago, I moved in as a placeholder; from afar, and often close — I visited them thousands of miles away when I could. I called them nearly daily for over a decade. they never asked for anything, and they were not good at asking anyone for anything – in fact, I know they were more comfortable alone. it was something that they were used to their entire life. we developed a bond that I didn’t know I would have with someone in this lifetime. we shared secrets and vulnerabilities that I thought were forbidden in the context of our relationship. I also knew, all the while, that one day they would not be incarnate any longer. we spoke, many times, about what that would look like — the signs they would give, the indications they would offer, the words they would use, prior; and what would happen afterward. this brought me a lot of peace, to be able to talk about these things so openly, and I don’t know if I am the only one who they connected to in this way but I suspect yes.

toward the end of their physical incarnate journey, we had some difficult conversations. I have never had the heart to hurt certain people with the truth, and I believe that God and karma are so incredibly legitimate, that some things never need to be said – after all, the conscious mind incarnate is completely different from the consciousness of the soul after it leaves physical form. because this person and I were so connected on a soul level, I felt confident that the things I couldn’t bear to tell them while they were alive, would be known by them when they were no longer alive — except VERY much alive, in a different way.

this person was my best friend in every way. as is often painful to see in many dynamics, there were those who did not like that or support that. people will use all kinds of evil tactics to insert themselves between two people who care about one another, for different reasons; and to a degree in this lifetime and timeline, it worked toward the end of my loved one’s physical life. being acutely aware of those around them and the energy they were helpless to inhaling, I found ways to make peace with this. our private communications and connection never ceased, despite outside interference. in fact, in some ways, it only made us more connected.

the day that I left for Europe two years ago for work, my special person tried to “leave”. I was always told that they would do it this way — in a way that was convenient to others, as the last thing they wanted or liked was drama. they didn’t want a whole scene of individuals congregating around them, and I really appreciate that! however, two years ago, they were not successful in leaving. again, this is a subject we had spoken about for nearly a decade, privately! the day that I left for Europe, I felt a crushing pain in my chest and I did not know why. it lasted a full three weeks, and it was the worst physical, emotional and spiritual pain I have ever felt for an extended period of time — and I didn’t know where it was coming from as I was completely in the dark being overseas with a bad internet connection and focused on what I was there to be focused on. upon returning, later on, I learned what happened. when I spoke with my loved one, they told me that they had had a stroke. it was striking to me, everything that I felt around this event — tangibly and intangibly. and, knowing this person, I was not surprised that they tried to “take off” (my loved one had all kinds of ways of describing their journey to the other side, and they used humor — they never seemed afraid of dying) exactly at that time. but there was unfinished business for them, and they were not permitted to leave at that time.

over the next year and a half or so, I was attuned to their journey in many ways. the thing is, we don’t leave until we are allowed to. I knew this person’s personal desires, but God always rules our journey from start to finish. I knew that when I wasn’t communicating with them physically or via phone, I would “know” their path. the mourning of them incarnate actually came long before their physical departure. they appeared in many dreams, saying goodbye, upon which I would wake up sobbing with a deep mourning in my heart. it was my unconscious mind processing MANY things around my loved one — things I could control, and things I absolutely could not control. I processed things that THEY had a hard time processing in their life. the secrets, the pain, and many other things. since I knew their signals, I was prepared for when they would finally be allowed to leave. it was on my heart and mind, the entire last leg of their journey, to be left with no regrets. and I have none.

on our last phone call — and this is something I had never done before with them either via phone or in person — I sobbed uncontrollably and told them how much I loved them. there were so many things that I had wanted to say during that call, but I didn’t have the heart. it wasn’t up to me. it was up to their higher self, their conscious and unconscious mind, and their life path to understand and discover for themselves. I don’t believe in free will interference and so I won’t do it unless absolutely necessary. I won’t play the game of manipulation and “winning” when it comes to relationships. and when we pull back, and stay in integrity, karma takes care of everyone and everything. particularly during an afterlife of someone who was hosting many energies whilst incarnate…

during my last phone call with this person, which came prior to their very final last physical leg of their journey, I felt peace and I knew it was the last time that we would talk. I would then listen to my heart and gut as to their future communications. which have come in spades, since…

two weeks to the day before they died, I felt an incredible physical pain. it was similar to the pain I get before during and after the healing sessions I have done, only magnified. ten-fold, perhaps. I was not “sick”, nor did I have a flu. my loved one, by the way, did not have the flu. I spent two weeks in incredible physical pain, with an anxiety in my heart so separate from me, that my only conclusion was someone close to me or even one degree of separation was crossing over. this is a feeling that I have had many times, particularly when people die, except this time it was prolonged in a way that was too personal. a series of events occurred in my personal life as well, to mimic the symbolism of death in general. the night before my loved one died, I felt an INCREDIBLE peace wash over me. I was journaling about it, asking God, “what is this”? it was profound. the night before they died, I woke startled in the middle of the night, smelling smoke — I thought the house was on fire. it wasn’t. I know what this means – it was the first “tangible” intangible sign they were sending to me. I went back to sleep, and about an hour later woke again with a sudden jolt after a dream of an officer at my door — a metaphor for news being delivered from personnel. the morning before they died, I felt the same thing as the night before I went to bed and awoke to those “dreams”. it was an exaggerated peace, an exhilaration of sorts, and the physical pain and anxiety completely quit. I always know the difference between what is mine and what is not mine in the intangible planes, so the clarity here was perfect. I was experiencing their imminent bliss, their impending relief. the morning before my loved one died, as this peace kicked in throughout my entire being, I saw TWO red cardinals in a row — without sharing a ton about my loved one personally, this was more than just a “sign”. it was our way of communicating. they were also an avid birdwatcher for many years, with books, binoculars, the whole jam. I “knew” that this was the day, the day that they were finally allowed to choose a certain freedom that had been important to them for some time.

my loved one was in physical pain for over a decade. we spoke, many times, about their desire to leave and “how”. I knew that God doesn’t usually allow us to take our own way out, so I felt for the physical nature of their suffering. I also knew that there was more than that, and that we each have our own life review to process…even if it is slow and painful. when we have an actual ego death WHILST in physical form, it feels like this too. death is death is death – no matter physical or spiritual. when they died that day, being as connected to them as I was in mind body and spirit, I felt an INCREDIBLE expansion and I knew that they were rejoicing like those birds that kept showing up. I went to central park, to a quiet spot on the pond, and the BIGGEST red cardinal sat just several feet from me. for an hour. it was a majestic red (male bird), it was pronounced, and it was one of those things that you have to see to believe. I took peace in this, and I felt grateful for my loved one caring enough to send me signs.

the irony is, with those who we care about, and particularly when it is complicated because well, people in the world are complicated, true connections are never broken. truth is never eternally broken, albeit if it is temporarily. the irony also is, I always knew that during the last part of my loved one’s journey, we would be able to be close again and perhaps closer than ever, after they made their transition to a realm that they spoke about with me so often.

I think that the biggest thing people struggle with, with regard to death of loved ones (or unloved ones!) is regret. I am grateful for my connection with my loved one, because I have no regrets. I knew for a couple of decades that this time would come, and I did everything I wanted to in order to maximize and complete our positive karma together, despite outside forces and challenges. I am grateful for the time I devoted, for our hours and hours of phone calls nightly over many years, our special visits together, and our private conversations. NOTHING and NO ONE can break a special bond, and this was the first person in my life whom I ever felt and had a truly special bond to. the bond is infinite, and I look forward to exploring the new shape it has taken for I can feel their freedom and relief. my animals certainly feel it, too!

we all experience physical death of loved ones differently. if I didn’t have certain experiences such as the ones I share above, I am not sure what I would think of an article like this one. but the fact is, we each have our own special experiences. they don’t need to look or sound like mine. but if you are looking for that connection, maybe my share here will help. the most important thing that I can share is that genuine bonds are never broken. and when someone transitions out of the physical, there is actually more freedom than ever…as the human ego is no longer holding captive lies, secrets, force, or surrounding energies that seek to manipulate and tarnish what is true. when all of that is released, ALL OF THAT IS RELEASED. and to that end, we may each experience a unique freedom, as well as newfound appreciation for what was, what never was, and for what we miss most. for what we miss most has an opportunity to take a new shape now.

I love you, my beautiful cardinal.

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updates, personal updates and feelings, and my first of three books coming

©Healing Elaine, photo by Anita Saini

although I am not doing healing sessions, I will still be writing and updating my blog. after all, it would be impossible to work with everyone on planet earth who either wants or needs the work that I do. so, as I have always seen, I will reach people in other ways. by stopping one-on-one sessions, I am beginning to re-store and re-cultivate my energy again. it feels good. and I have a lot of new thoughts and feelings.

first off, there are a handful of remote sessions and special offerings that I made to past patients who I built relationships with over many years. they took advantage of certain offers that I made, and obviously they will not be forgotten in my equation of stopping new sessions. if you are one of these people, you already know you are taken care of – in one way or another. I want those I’ve worked with to know how much I appreciate them on a soul level, and all of the things I learned from working with them.

next, there is this. the last three years of my life were the hardest they have ever been. in a very different way, from the past or the early part of my life. the fact is, I go through things which I can find not one person on planet earth to relate to. it is just what it is. it is what has driven my work in the past, this very specific and unorthodox personal energy signature that I carry. it is how I am able to do the work that I have done, break things down for people, present concepts, solve problems, and so on. it is a VERY lonely journey, and continuing to work in the way that I was WHILE facing a MONSTROUS uphill battle with censorship was a death sentence for me.

I know that many people have no idea that I was (still am!) censored, or the extent that it reached, and it has been frustrating (to say the VERY least) to try and explain to anyone — even those close to me — what has happened over the last three years. one reason that it has been frustrating is that it is so unchartered, what has happened to me, there is simply no way for someone to relate unless they walked the path. another reason that it has been so frustrating, is that people fundamentally can NOT have their world not make sense; this means, that it is easier for them to hear that the individual is the problem — not the system. I realize that this is not personal. but it has been incredibly painful and jarring to witness people almost going completely unconscious when they have heard of my battles. “go take a walk” is some advice I actually received. now I want to be very clear here: what I have been dealing with is literally close to life or death, on a large scale. I have absolutely no words to describe what has happened to me, though I have tried here and there in a variety of blog posts over the last year or so. the ONLY analogy that could even possibly reach anyone right now, is the corona pandemic and having your lights turned off OVERNIGHT – but not knowing why. with no resolution in sight, ever. this is the last three years of my life. combined with a host of scary, invasive, offensive tactics and actions designed to shut. me. down. in all ways. unless you walk in these shoes, you just do not know or have any inclination as to what this does to someone — mind, body and spirit. as I combined all of that with my will and drive to break through, continue working, and focus all of my energy on solving life or death situations for people, I learned that I had to let go. of two things: one, focusing any more energy on the devil himself, who has single-handedly choked my logistics and business to death; and two, giving all of my life force to sessions. no matter how much I love seeing people turn corners.

it has also been disappointing to observe convenient judgement from people who, for whatever reason, are not able to see me as anything but a strong person. what I have gone through has almost destroyed me on a soul level. there were many, many days over these past three years that I did not want to wake up. and again, in order for you to come close to understanding why, you would have to have been in my shoes on a daily basis. fighting off every website domain you own being hijacked and put up for auction. having your banking interfered with. having your accounts drained by services you didn’t purchase. having your photo taken by strangers. being contacted by operatives with the intention of catching you in some sort of off-color communication. being followed and stalked in all ways. being audited for no good reason. having nearly everything that you spent years organizing and posting online hidden (aka shadowbanned — still happening). having your phone lines crossed and voicemails deleted, no matter how many times you changed phone numbers. and all the while, dedicating your life to helping other people with dreams and goals that became more and more and more distant for yourself. seeing every dollar that you made go into a dark black pit, that sunk deeper and deeper because your legal, operational and other life or death fees demanded such. going into significant debt all because people want you silenced. and if you read this and don’t believe it, then get off of my pages – you don’t know how the world works. good deeds are often not rewarded, because: jealousy, control, greed, and the way the underbelly of our world actually works.

if I sound like I am complaining, I’m actually not. the reason that I can write about it at this time is because over the last fiscal year most specifically, I have been rebounding on a soul level. I didn’t write about this when I was at my most vulnerable, because there was no perspective or energy to do so. and, I realize in retrospect that everything I have gone through (which is a host of things many would not believe because they live simple lives) has prepared me for much of the work I have dreamed about since I was a little girl. some of this work involves global peace negotiations and working with certain leaders. if we have not witnessed the devil before our eyes, we can not discern energy. what the last three years have afforded me, aside from incredible pain and confusion, is: stamina, healthy anger, truth, and letting go of what ANYONE thinks about me. I do not care. when we no longer care, because we have been so broken, we are at our most free AND our most powerful. I am getting there.

I watch the bandwagon of “spiritual healers” and “gurus” who know only of the kind of pain that comes through parents divorcing as a child. and, that’s valid. but in the face of GLOBAL CRISES, it is nothing. commenting on global affairs, offering “sage” advice on major issues, is a joke unless you know how things work. very few people do know how things work. and while I am incredibly sensitive to the theory of relativity (I actually AM as non-judgemental as my testimonials suggest! I am just writing pure real-talk here to make a point), it is crucial for me to express my truth with the hopes of truly being the bridge between light and dark; light is the truth, and dark is lies. the majority of the planet lives in lies. the reason? they only believe what they see – and what they see is 99% censored and tailor-made to keep them controlled. divided and conquered. it is safe to say, that if you do not resonate 100% with what I am writing here, you do not know how the world works. if you are in your 20s or 30s, unless you were born into pure adversity and have experienced the planet on a corporate, global and otherwise VAST scale, you do not know how the world works. so, just consider that. it’s called being open-minded and malleable to positive change. one of the reasons that I say all of this, is that we are headed toward MAJOR truth bombs. it’s not conspiracy theory, and it’s not about politics either. the media has brainwashed you into binary, identity-driven thinking. and it’s a trap. and nearly EVERYONE on our planet is in it. I’ve watched as those who work for me have 180-ed their perspective of the world, simply because they have been around SOME of my unusual life experiences. and they have drawn their own conclusions around it, simply by proxy of the events that are impossible to ignore.

I’ve watched as (I always say that MOST people are addicts — to some THING) our addict-driven population which LOVES drama and chaos and negativity, has become its worst version of itself during corona. it has highlighted the saddest part of the human condition epidemic that we live in: addiction to drama and negativity. nearly everyone believes they are an “expert”, and that their “hate” is warranted, and little do they realize that they are part of a big psychological human experiment. here is a tip to go around that: turn off CNN. turn off CBS. turn off MSNBC. turn off the mainstream addict social programming channels that cultivate fear, judgement, and MISINFORMATION. you are being lied to all day long, and you do not even know it. and then, you are going out into the world or to your little devices and spewing exactly the narrative that is designed to brainwash you rinse and repeat like a windup doll. if this offends you, then good – maybe it will push you to the brink of breakdown and to actual awakening. it is time for everyone to learn that there is no such thing as cancel culture. it is time to learn that because someone knows or lives or believes differently than you, they are still valid. most of all, it is important to know that YOU ARE WHAT YOU HATE. this one is my favorite. I look at the uncontainable hate and judgment heaved by people online — little do they know, they are revealing EXACTLY what unconscious experiences they have not even come close to processing. for example: you “HATE” Donald Trump or some other public figure sooooooo much that you have to talk about and post about them EVERY DAY? really? what you are screaming is: “I have so much hatred for my immediate family and the things that remind me of them that I will never consciously admit to myself, so let me use THIS target as my projection screen and maybe no one will notice”. people DO notice. I watched a young person who had worked for me in various capacities at one point, consistently making ageist and racist comments. all day. ironically, I fit the exact categories of their racist and ageist comments. I never said anything, as I knew they were fighting themSELVES. deep within them, they hated something about their race. and they hated those close to them who fit the age bill, because they felt abandoned by them. our outward hate, regardless of whether we feel it is “warranted” or not, says everything about us — and nothing about our target. and just because “everyone” around you is doing it, doesn’t mean that it is ok. at some point, the truth in our individual lives and collective lives IS revealed, and that includes YOURS TOO.

I am embarrassed for most of society, but at the same time totally understanding and accepting of everyone — we are seeing this negativity that I am both embarrassed for and accepting of, everywhere. on all sides of every equation. there is a rare, ACTUALLY WOKE, group of people NOT throwing hate and shade in every direction, JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE UNHEALED. and THESE are the people I am interested in knowing in life. they happen to exist, as diversity in life would have it, on every side of every equation! so, if you see me or hear of me hanging out or talking with “xyz person”, think twice before you label me as “X”. this is such an old, unconscious and outdated way of relating to the world. and if you are doing this, if you are into identity politics or cancel culture or binary thinking, you are not part of the problem — you ARE the problem. and don’t take my word for it — it will simply stop working for you.

if you have not figured it out yet, the media has trained you to be divided — and therefore it can conquer you. the group think brainwashed into Hollywood and BY Hollywood is the greatest joke of all…and those folks are the last to know, how obvious it is. you might be asking who I think I am saying these things — well, I am a person who has worked with so many people, of all denominations, and had experiences many will never have INCLUDING first-hand knowledge and experience with EVERYTHING I write about, and this gives me not only that knowledge and experience but actual perspective. I was sharing with a friend just last night, how “it all works”. how in order to “break in” to entertainment, I was attemptedly trafficked multiple times and “offered” insane proposals that would have made me a big star. I could have done this decades ago, folks. I just went the other way. how does this tie into our current state of affairs? I’ll tell you: politics. economy. EVERYTHING. when you learn that the world is ACTUALLY run on sex rings and violations of the most unthinkable kind, and how that drives and satiates the desires for “power” of otherwise “important” men and women, and how that ties into Hollywood (i.e. media and ALL of entertainment) and banking, you start to…get it. you can call it a conspiracy all you want. I have lived it. so when I make a “maniac” post about questioning what the mainstream media or Hollywood “says”, know that it is coming from actual experience and critical thinking. since the majority of the planet is so censored and “protected” from the facts, all they can do is parrot what they are told. and I’ll be clear: if you knew the truth, you would never leave your house. that’s rather ironic, considering our current state of affairs…

moving over to corona. guys, there are so many things you are NOT seeing. did you know, also, that CBS actually used footage of an ITALIAN hospital, passing it off as a NYC hospital? probably not. their “mistake” correction (only after being caught) was not exactly mainstream. this, is what is called propaganda. these are the people you are trusting to inform you. what I am NOT saying, is that corona is a hoax. I am not saying that. corona is a virus, similar to the common flu, with a different mutation. period. and no, I don’t have all of the facts. but do you not question anything you are told? how about this. the other day, I called my family doctor’s office. I got an appointment immediately/next day. I went in. it was empty. EMPTY. I was offered a corona test, as I was told there were more than enough. more than enough. in an empty family medicine center. yet on the news, we see incredible (and some of it, fake! if we are in such a serious pandemic, why add fake footage???) despair. death. doomsday. the fact is, like the common flu, there are high risk groups. I don’t debate isolating. it’s important to do whatever it takes to contain things we do not fully understand or that can spread. I am one of the most sensitive people I know and I can not stand to see ANYONE suffer — but almost as much as that, I can not stand to see a lack of truth and information spread. and right now we are seeing a drama queen’s or untreated addict’s wet dream on the news. the irony is, people who thrive and live on drama and chaos and fear, LOVE this. they will say they don’t. they will say they are suffering and afraid. they will point to “the big bad man” who is President and cry about it. unfortunately, this pandemic was created especially for them — it is a dream come true for corrupt news, and for people with political agenda. it is not about the facts for most people. it is about the drama. and we wonder why this corona thing came along. it’s called an awakening. so, why not do a few things differently?

I realize that speaking the actual truth is very unpopular. I’ve “lost” a couple (literally only a couple, which is surprising and gives me hope) people whose lives were CHANGED working with me. people will do ANYTHING in order for their world to make sense; that includes denying truth, in order to make that world make sense. I’ve already suffered greatly for living in the truth, which is the origin of the hostile censorship and relentless desire for a specific enemy to take me down (they never will). but I won’t stop speaking the truth. my website can continue to be slowed by ISPs simply because I am on some hit list akin to a terrorist group. they can keep hiding and striking out my reviews and videos. but they can not hide me or the truth that I know, that I share for anyone on the actual cusp of wanting to wake up. if you think my work has been limited to helping a couple thousand people wake up and change their lives and transmute illnesses and have babies, then you are mistaken…my work goes much broader. and that is why I have stopped one-on-one sessions…so that I may regain my energy for equally but more broadly important initiatives.

I have three books coming. the first one, which is complete, will hopefully drop soon. I have had the incredible honor of working with several notable award winning authors and artists, who have been encouraging me and standing behind me for half a decade as far as my work and writing is concerned. it will be either with their help, or not, that I find the perfect publisher for my book(s). as soon as that is complete, the audio versions can be recorded and that includes my eBooklets and my blog as well. if you have noticed, my entire blog is many books waiting to happen. the next step is about TIMING. there is a reason that I have been waiting to focus on publishing, and there will be a reason that it happens at exactly the right time. five years ago, when I wrote my eBooklets, we were NOT ready as a collective to digest them. no one was writing about what I was writing about. I wrote about it, because I couldn’t find answers to themes I discuss anywhere. I still can’t. so, I live out insane experiences so that I can then write about them. I get it that they only resonate with a fraction of the human population…but those that they resonate with are the most amazing people I have ever met. they live on the edge of truth, freedom, and pioneering their respective fields. and I trust that group. I am seeing that at this particular moment in time, the mainstream population might actually digest the core themes in my eBooklets…and maybe later, my blog. and it doesn’t matter how much I am censored by big brother, they can’t stop me from publishing. unless, of course, they kill me. but even then, someone else can publish my work! sound dramatic? it’s not. again: I’ll tell my whole story (or someone else will) in good time. and that takes me to my TV Series.

my TV Series Great Awakening is literally metaphoric to what we are experiencing right now as a collective. it’s beautiful, even in all of its pain and despair. my first book, which is called “Great Awakening: a seer’s mini-guide to understanding the intangible planes of the human experience”, and is a conglomeration of my eBooklets 1-6, is the premise for the TV Series. I only want to work with people who are aligned with the truth. this may shock you, but this includes people of ALL denominations; for example, one of my directors is “left” or left of center. another team member is extremely far left. another team member has gone from left to dead center. I don’t know what I am, as I see truth on EVERY SIDE and in EVERY PERSON. other team members will be “right”. the irony is, everyone lives in their truth. all truths are valid. they just…are. and it is fascinating to see people present ideas and concepts without hating or arguing. why? because they are awake and THEY ARE NOT AFRAID OF THE TRUTH. when you are not afraid of the truth, you can have an opinion but not argue or force your opinion. this is what Great Awakening stands for. the truth does not need to convince you of anything, and the truth appeals to all people…whether they live in it or not, because the truth is a mirror! what they do with that mirror is secondary. get it?

at the moment I am rebuilding my energy because battling the intense evil directed at taking me down, combined with lending out my precious life force to others, is not sustainable. I will find and have found ways to combat both without fighting. the message was sent to me loudly, after being pursued by such intense evil (evil loves to take down both light, and bridges) that it made its way right into my practice. and God said “it’s time to stop. this is why I am torturing you by sending you maniac after maniac”. and so I listened. I listened after certain things inside of me broke that could only be fixed by stepping away and taking pieces of my soul back. and God said “it’s time to stop. this is why I am messing with your entire online identity on a daily basis. it is so that you can step away from it, dis-identify with it, and focus your attention to the next important place. don’t worry, all will be re-instated”. it is ironic that while the google algorithm has changed since corona (yes, facts), my censorship has ramped up. but I know what to do with that. and all parties involved will regret their actions one day. no one can escape the karma that is coming or them, and if they had enough light in them to believe or understand that, they would regret the day they stepped in my path to try and stop me. this is how karma works, and as my eBooklet 4 says, it IS indeed immediate.

be open to the facts, without feeling threatened that your “entire identity” will change just because you agree with new truth. one person who is an interesting example of this is a man named Brandon Straka. check him out. not because I agree with everything that he says, but because he is an amazing example of someone waking up and changing their mind about the “facts”. Brandon doesn’t live in a binary world that says, “because you are gay, you have to blah blah blah…” or “because you live in Brooklyn, you have to blah blah blah…”. for all that it is worth, he has decided who he is and what he believes, separately from society. and there are people, on all sides of the equation politically, who can actually do this. and I respect them. it doesn’t matter to me WHAT they believe, it matters to me what they are doing with what they believe and WHY. basically: their personal integrity. THIS relates to intention. but you can’t have intention without personal integrity. and, you can’t have personal integrity without knowing why you believe what you believe! I have hesitated to write about politics because honestly it falls outside of my personal focus, but I DO write about the truth which has had enough political references in it AND I have spoken the truth in my sessions and workshops that contain political reference and THAT has gotten me censored and attacked by a whole other aspect of the evil equation that has sought to take me down. the truth is so powerful, that people will do anything to silence it. and I mean ANYTHING. so, do what you like with that, but please consider that you don’t know what you don’t know. and the ONLY pathway forward is bridging all sides together. people like Brandon are doing that SIMPLY by considering and experiencing various, “other” and additional points of view. no one swings from left to right or right to left without actually living and doing personal, critical thinking. I have great respect for anyone who lives in personal truth and has made it their mission, instead of simply parroting what they hear on TV. it is my personal goal to bridge the most unlikely characters together, to come together, on issues like economy, environment, and media. and guess what? it won’t happen by me being a mainstream media PARROT. and yet, people attack that and “cancel” me…how ironic. if you have done this, you do not know me and you need to look in the mirror. I will live for being the bridge that I was born to be and I will work with and support all structures that can get us there. for example, if you see me wrapped in a MAGA flag one day, instead of judging me or thinking you know my thoughts on policies (I actually don’t have many! I do not know much about politics at all!), perhaps instead consider the bridge that is needed to lessen the divide. consider, perhaps, that there is truth in a place you find it least likely. consider that you do not know why certain things are happening, and that some of your worst fears are actually transferred or misplaced. not everything you see or hear means what YOU think or mean it to mean…

I have become increasingly disturbed by the divide, the hate, the unconscious bias, the hypocrisy and the ignorance of humanity as it exists without listening to all points of view. the above knows no political affiliation or identity. the above is human. and it is asleep. we are more than our identities and physical bodies. yet we act otherwise. I go to yoga classes and hear teachers with 1% of my life experience not teaching yoga, but telling me how to live. people are desperate to have their views of the world imposed upon others, for fear that if they do not, their internal worlds will fall apart. well, let your internal world fall apart. clearly, something right now, is not right. and you DON’T know what it is…

if you have stuck by me for years or since we have met, I appreciate you and I thank you. and if you have “canceled” me or turned on me, I appreciate you and I thank you. we are all just wherever we are, at any point in time. and, we are WHAT and who we are, on an intrinsic level, at any point in time. as I always say: people are created equal — energy is NOT. as I rise, I see what has been around me the entire time and I have a new lens for such. so do you. the goal is not dogmatic or opinionated, the goal is awareness. and awareness can only come from facing hard times and horrific disappointment. if you can do that, you will come out on the other side. instead of judging others (however ALWAYS discern others!! please, there is a difference — learn it), turn the camera back on yourself. if your life is not working, what are you fighting against? I learned that, although there were and are forces I could not and can not fully control, I had choices. I was afraid that during the last three years, I had made mistakes; I had turned down press that would have made me “insta-famous” – I thought to myself, “did I make a mistake? did I self-sabotage? by saying no?”…after going through censorship etc, I learned that no, I did not make a mistake. the way that I knew this was 1) I followed my GUT in moments of “opportunity” to the fullest and 2) I NOW see what the last three years has meant for me and why. I am not a person to sell out for anything (obviously). and I know the risks and rewards that come with that. personal virtue (not virtue signaling!) is ALL we ever have. the old world is crumbling. those who have whored their souls and bodies to another force will pay the price. we always do. the virtue within us is all we have, and often, it is not too late for redemption if we are willing to be honest and ask for it. people are forgiving when we admit how wrong we have been. if you feel this way, go and admit it. get on your knees, ask for forgiveness, and change your life. you may be surprised to know how many people will be there to allow that burden to be lifted off of you. after all, it is not what we GET out of being honest, rather it is the lift of the burden off of our soul that is the outcome. we may still be left alone, but at least without burden. something to consider.

as I step back from having my energetic internet accessible to the world, I find pieces of myself coming back to me. this will allow me to continue to write freely, but also and simultaneously be much more private in a way that I have never been in the past. I am used to giving away EVERY piece of me, so that others can benefit. what started as a pure survival tool as a baby and child and young adult then adult, and what was also a sheer gift, I now want for myself. I want to witness one — some — any of the miracles I’ve witnessed others realize through my work with them. I have to learn that my gifts are also for ME. and I notice, as a consequence of stepping back, whose lives have been propped up 100% by my life force instead of their own by doing their own work. it will be whatever it will be. some people built their actual identity off of me. off of my identity, my life force, our connection, or whatever. and I can FEEL it in the ethers, as I simply reclaim what is germane only to me, how someone will either scramble to “replace” me or “cancel” me. some people can’t simply change gears, they need to instead conjur unjustified anger to deal with separation. this is emotional immaturity, and it’s ok. we have all been there, somehow, at some point in time. but my point is that I notice so much. doing the “wrong” thing — either by assuming someone else’s energy, or stealing, or doing something we know goes against our soul — may feel “good” for a time…but just like black magic, the curse wears off. and when it does, it is you against the world. it is you facing the mirror. we are each best and better served to look at that mirror, and know it’s all we got. it’s all we ever had. the hard part is, most people don’t know who they are. but that’s another article entirely. you get my point.

it is my wish that everyone, at this time, find themselves. use this unique time, not to holler at the news or who you THINK is responsible for your unhappiness and discontent, to look in the mirror. to get quiet. turn off the flocking TV and your little fake instagram that is TOTALLY censored to feed you lies and things that make you feel angry and inferior (I don’t know how people do it — scrolling around all day, looking at other people’s “lives”….aren’t you TIRED from that? you should be.). take inventory on your life and consider what matters. who are you helping? do you volunteer, like, for ANYTHING in life? why not? why are you so self-focused? what is your point for living or breathing? who can you help simply because it feels good to do so, without agenda? learn to be grateful for this first class country we actually live in. there is a reason everyone wants to come here, despite promoting hating it at the same time. what are those reasons? what are your reasons for being here? what are your potentials and opportunities? what can you create RIGHT NOW? great and amazing things are born from the worst times, the hardest times. I am a prime example of that. my entire life has been a shit show of hard times, and unendurable back luck and misfortune. but I know it’s not by accident, and that I have two choices; I can kill myself, or I can fight to THRIVE. since I won’t kill myself, I am left with one option only. extremes leave you with either death or passion. and while I admit that I barely had the energy to continue breathing these last three years, I knew that I would not die. and so I am stuck here. just like you. and I have had to thank my lucky stars for all of the simple things that I have, and the rare gifts that I have that we EACH have if only we DARE to look. looking takes courage. courage requires vulnerability. vulnerability requires honesty. honesty requires faith in believing in something that we can not see but that we put blind trust in, hoping that it will all work out because we are each imperfectly perfect.

stop waiting for this time to be “over”. do what you can, to empower (versus dis-empower) yourself and / or others. it can be a simple step, like sleeping more. or eating better. or hydrating. it can be as simple as that. no one is expecting us to save the world, and after all, we can not do anything actually meaningful unless and until we improve our own self first. start small. give yourself a break. but most of all, learn to think for yourself. it will change your world, and the world around you.

if you are reading this, and particularly if we have worked together, I hope you remember who you know I am. on the most core soul level. we connected for a reason. stay open.

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no more sessions

this one is a long time coming…there are no more new Healing Elaine® sessions (of any kind) happening, either for new or former patients.

I hope you continue to enjoy the blog and eBooklets, and I look forward to showing the connected dots of the Healing Elaine® journey in a meaningful way moving forward.

feel free to stay updated on my TV SeriesGreat Awakening” coming soon.

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plagiarism and impersonation of my work and protocol…the phenomenon

©Healing Elaine®, photo by Alejandro Padron

folks. this feels like a petty post, but it has to be written.

when I started my company, I had to change my name three times. THREE. I chose a name and then yet another name and then yet another name that no one else had (of course I researched this extensively). I never imagined that anyone would not want to be exactly who they are (I still did not understand, at that time, why many people do not have identities of their own), and so I didn’t expect the copycat bandwagon to arrive. it did! in spades. after I settled into a third name “Healing Elaine®” (I have seen now, other Healing ___’s out there, but at this point I am not changing my trademarked brand as it is too established) I noticed another phenomenon — my actual words, structure, and way of working aka “protocol” (come on guys) was being replicated.

it started initially with patients of mine who were seeking identity. this was in the early days of my work. I would help them, and let’s say they were professional editors (oh, the irony). they would leave my office, and months later, pop up with a HEALING practice (these were not people who ever mentioned the slightest interest in “healing” or helping others, by the way). but not just that — they would copy/paste my actual words! as their own. I was just…mind blown. this was the start of what I began to realize is a long-running human sickness. it is something I saw growing up as a young person, and I wrote a blog post about it a few years ago — it is called Hostile Envy. basically, the premise is that someone gets close to you (in those days it was in person, not online!) and then suddenly 180s and “doesn’t like you” anymore. this is basically an example of an individual without identity, trying to claim yours, and splitting off a piece of themselves as “anger” which is disguised as “you’re not a nice person, I don’t like you anymore!” IN ORDER TO BECOME YOU. this happened to me constantly as a child. and, now it happens constantly as an adult! you can’t make this stuff up.

as my business moved along (and I’ve written about various examples of copycat syndrome in other posts, and people I helped unbelievably who then had to “distance” themselves from me — because, they either wanted to become me or parrot me or compete with me), I noticed people I once knew personally regurgitating my teachings; but not only that…grasping at straws for my patients’ attention and connecting with them. I literally had a $35 dollar psychic who had NO platform or social media when I met them, completely inspire their business after me. including a name change. including subject matter that was not even on their radar prior to meeting me. and to boot, after I promoted them and sent dozens and dozens of referrals their way, they bad-mouthed me to my own clients! it was like the 7th grade allllllll over again. but it didn’t start or end there.

I referred a patient of mine to a “best-selling author” a number of years back. I figured, hey, this author is successful so what could be bad about sending them business? well, looking back, I’m not so sure this author even wrote their own book. they had hired a ghostwriter, and somehow commissioned a well-known author and speaker to write their foreward. basically, you can do ALMOST anything with enough money — because enough people can be easily bought. sadly, most people can be easily bought. anyhow, the patient I sent to them took a class they were teaching. this person let the author know that I sent them. the author pretended to not know who I am, but I knew that they did. do you know, that within a month, this author had completely replicated my format!? down to the exact hour count. down to the explaining of the process, yet they were careful enough not to totally plagiarize my words (unlike people I am currently shocked at). now, WHY would a “best-selling author” need to do this? it’s a phenomenon that I write about, and one that I just LOVE talking about in therapy. because, of course, my therapist is not one of these people. rather, he is probably THE most achieved person in neuroscience and psychology and psychiatry who exists in today’s world, but it’s HIS WORK. he is a powerhouse. and, he’s quiet about it and doesn’t need attention. he just does his work. and, we talk about this phenomenon and why it happens to ME, constantly. the phenomenon as well that you say to someone, “sorry, you can’t merge with me” and suddenly you are hated/bad/mean/wrong/etc. watch what happens when people who are currently ripping me off are confronted, because they have no identity of their own…I will suddenly become a “bad” person, because I have reflected back their void. it’s truly unbelievable how it all works.

after the “best-selling author” incident, it just kept happening. people who I invested hours and hours of pro-bono work in, helping them to build companies of their own and fostering their gifts that they had never even considered, would either ghost or find a reason to “not like me”. I realized, “it’s happening again…”…I realized that in order for these copycats to exist, I could not exist. or else, their world would not make sense.

I don’t want to embarrass anyone, but it’s been happening again. it doesn’t hurt, because I don’t know these recent people personally. they have followed my accounts on and off (because, you know, transference; on / off / on / off — it’s a psychological disorder), watched every story like an addict, and then…become a version of me. I have been sent examples of accounts/people doing this, and I have observed accounts doing this. most recently, someone trying to “make it” in NYC has parroted my ENTIRE protocol. they also did the thing where, they follow a bunch of people, then then unfollow everyone. just like my accounts follow 0. well, frankly, my accounts follow 0 because I am SO sensitive, that I am afraid of NOT following someone and hurting their feelings! my work is so deep and personal with people, that I just don’t want to risk hurting some impressionable young person (or, anyone for that matter). I also just do NOT feel a pull to look at other people’s lives. honestly, I just…don’t. and finally, it was a way to stop the bizarre TROLLING of who people thought I was friends with / connected to. no thank you.

so, there is this individual now (depending upon their psychological state, it could really excite them that I am writing about this — people will do anything to be “seen”), parroting my “protocol”. verbatim. mandating prerequisites – my prerequisite book mandate. COME ON, folks, really? not only that, what’s more disturbing than copycatting my actual process (down to their specified “phone calls only”, and “due to high demand” reasoning — again, you can’t make this stuff up) is their “reasoning”; it’s reasoning that arose from my core. MY core. it’s not only bizarre, but totally unnatural. and, it is how people energetically “move in”, to other people. by trying to…become them. this is more than surface stuff, it is energy vampire stuff.

this stuff doesn’t end in middle school, guys. and, it’s disturbing and it SHOULD be noted as disturbing (as well as illegal — I pay very good money, monthly, to ward against plagiarism and YES I will address all of the above legally) because it is a total invasion of privacy. this model of behavior is the reason serial killers kill: they have zero identity, and so they absorb that of others…until, their mind can not handle the fact that the person they are robbing essence-wise and life-force wise STILL EXISTS. well let me tell you something: I exist. and there will never be two of us.

the work that I do, lets people know that they are ENOUGH all on their own. I foster individuality and gifts. I am fortunate to predominantly attract amazing people (and I’ve obviously gotten better at it over time) through my work who have enough “SELF” to make lots of lemonade with it. it is so ironic to me that I also attract the polar opposite; and, if you are not careful, and you too attract this and don’t recognize it, you will be left feeling depleted and then-some…assuming you are a sensitive person.

stalkers, impersonators, copycats, plagiarists, addicts and sociopaths are all in the same family; and what I write about above, is REALLY no different. it just depends upon the degree to which it occurs. I know that typically, the best response to these things is NO response; I actually only confronted ONE person ever, with regard to the above, and that is because they are not crazy. typically, people just want attention, and so they do this, hoping you will notice, and then once you engage it is like their CRACK. and, they go into denial, blame, projection, etc etc etc. it is someone’s ultimate fantasy to be confronted by an otherwise successful person — it validates to them that they exist. my “PROTOCOL”, however, is a legal consideration. I won’t tolerate plagiarism, not of my concepts and not of my words. if someone wants to read my blog on speed and regurgitate it on a podcast (this happens, too!), and pass it off as their own, FINE. go ahead. you can’t fake being who you are, and anyone who buys into it is also living at a level of un-truth. so, go for it. pretend to live my experiences. but if you are mimicking my words in copy, you will be pursued. don’t try it. also, I won’t contact you directly — my legal team will. so, you will not get the buzz you are looking for because I won’t be part of the equation. this is as much energy as you’ll get from me.

the epidemic of lack of self, is huge. it happens at the “highest” levels in society, too! many people spend a LIFETIME becoming OTHER PEOPLE. as I always say: humans are created equal, but energy is not™. this is legit. you must discern who / what you are dealing with! what we see is not what we get. people who pretend to be other people are simply really good at never being themselves — because who they are is dark. the only way to transmute dark is to look in a mirror — and those who parrot, copycat, mimic and over-identify with others will NEVER look in the mirror. so, it’s important to just…stay away from them. the same way I am suggesting that anyone with an ounce of sanity stay away from duplicating what I offer to the world. if you are sane, if you are talented, then JUST BE YOU. you are plenty. you are only you. there is only one of you. you are unique. DARE to find your talents, because they are endless. it is not TALENT that blesses a person, but the COURAGE to identify and AWAKEN that talent!

don’t plagiarize me.

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Healing Elaine®’s Truth workshop

©Healing Elaine®, photo by Anita Saini

in 2017, after the Presidential election, I held a workshop. people were really bent out of shape and afraid of what this “unforeseen” election result meant. as always, I attract people from ALL CORNERS — with varying backgrounds, experiences, viewpoints and feelings. however; I am good at vetting those who at least live in truth — and this means, that a room full of people with different thoughts CAN totally mesh and make sense together. because I am this bridge, I believe it is one strong reason why I have been so heavily censored — the “powers that be” don’t like what I do (they dislike bridges). anyhow, during this 2017 workshop I was able to calm people down and help explain to them “the point of it all” — so that they would hopefully stop obsessing about it daily, stop watching baiting news that fosters divisiveness, and start focusing on their own inner power and strength…so that when future hard truths presented in their lives, they would be more ready.

I don’t often do workshops, because frankly they are very hard for me. they typically take me days or longer to prepare for (physically and energetically), and even longer to recover from. the bane of my work comes from my core, and I simply can not turn off being attuned on every level to an individual’s (or entire group’s) thoughts, feelings, and general dispositions. however, I feel the time is here for another workshop. if you read my blog, I don’t need to explain much about what this workshop would be like. it is important to note, though, that if you do not FULLY resonate with my blog, then it is NOT for you. don’t waste my time by calling because you have the intention of challenging who I am or what I know; I have no space for skeptics or people who want to bait me and “test” me in order to drain me or work out some personal psychological issue with me as a projection screen (yes, people try to do this).

this workshop will run an entire day and evening. they typically start later day and go past sunset. I will not publicly announce the specific location, it is TBA the night before the event and it will take place in Manhattan. as with every workshop I have ever done, there will be no recording devices allowed and phones will be turned off and placed in a separate space — this is because we are in a group setting and there are other people’s privacies to respect. when I do events in a group setting, everyone signs a confidentiality form — again, because I want other people to be able to feel free sharing thoughts that they might otherwise not share, if they could not do so confidentially.

I have never had a guest speaker or guest facilitator before, but for this event I am considering two. I am considering both a guest speaker as well as a sound healer. at least one of them is a former patient of mine.

the date for this is soon, but I will share it over the phone; in order to share it over the phone, I need to be sure that you are attending this workshop for the right reasons. typically, I can tell when someone is contacting me for the right reasons — once in a very great while, however, I get a bad actor who just wants to test my process and waste my time. I have no time or energy for the latter. it is not important to me what your world views are, and I am not out to change anyone’s opinion or force my opinion or the opinion of others upon you; rather, this is an opportunity to be open, receive support and answers, and feel part of something bigger than we each appear to be. as with each of my individual sessions, I take extra time and care to do my best to be sure that I am engaging with the right person at the right time. I have told people “no”, many times over — and developed a reputation for doing so; this I have done in the highest respect for and the best interest of all parties involved. if I wanted to be a roadside healer I would just let my revolving door spin and anyone who is anyone could sign up online and I would collect all day long. clearly that is not what I do.

here is what you need to do prior to calling with interest (it is important to note the difference between interest and inquiry, please); read my blog. read at least a few different long pieces. be prepared to talk about them, why they interest you, and what they mean to you. I won’t ask anyone to buy my eBooklets, because I don’t want to sound salesy. but what I write is the bane of what I share and expound upon at length in person – be it a one-on-one session or another service of mine…in this case, a workshop. as I have been saying, my time doing one-on-one healings has been winding down for quite a bit. some of it is beyond my control due to the incredible censorship I have experienced — but, all that really means, is that the censorship has provided for me less and less reachouts to vet. on my own side of the equation, my sessions have gotten longer and fewer and farther between. my model has expanded and contracted at the same time. I am interested in continuing to work with people, one-on-one, who affect our planet on a global level. this, of course, presents both benefits and challenges for me.

there will be opportunity during this workshop to talk about ANYTHING you want; it could even be very personal questions you have about your life and topics that digress from group or main topics that we may be covering. the structure for this workshop will follow my eBooklet series that is being turned into a TV Series, so even if you don’t purchase and download the eBooklets you will have a frame of reference as to the topic structure.

to reach out with interest regarding this workshop, please call 917-985-1221. if you can NOT ring through, or if you are not able to leave a voicemail with your first name only, then please visit my About page for a backup step. do NOT email that address without specifically stating when you tried calling, and what happened when you tried to leave a voicemail. I will delete your email if you are simply emailing — that is NOT my protocol. I work this way for a reason and it helps me avoid much nonsense. I need to hear your voice.

if you can not attend or do not want to attend the workshop, there are other ways to support my work. I don’t have a donation link because I still feel too much confliction around that (after all — upon applying for my first business loan EVER, the SBA denied me and called me a “patronage”! ha – as if. even my bank did not understand their response. well, maybe I should go be that [a patronage]. it would certainly make things easier); you may, however, download my eBooklets and 15 other articles that are available for download throughout my website. if you are interested in a one-on-one session, those are scarce right now for two reasons; one, my censorship has truly limited who can reach me…and two, my work takes dozens of hours and I have to be sure it is the right person. and just because you can afford it, does NOT mean I want to work with you or that it is the right session — I would turn down one BILLION dollars just to avoid working with the wrong person. I mean it. it is just not worth it to me. besides; the physical realm is all an illusion. my life force is worth infinite value and I can not put a price tag on what it takes for me to recover from the work that I do as well as in both prep and post — not to mention what happens if/when I work with the wrong person. if you do not understand this, then I am definitely not for you anyhow right now. please don’t think you can “try” a session with me just because you “can”. I mean this with the utmost respect for all parties concerned.

those who feel a pull and who are the right fit for this workshop will know it. to stay connected on other platforms, in the event my website or other platforms go dark, please follow me on Instagram, Facebook, LinkedIn, YouTube, and Medium (even though I am currently or have been censored and shadowbanned on them). I have yet to consider other platforms like “TikTok”, etc!

it is all going to be OK.

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my patient Laura Jane Haver is starting her own practice, and she wrote about her Healing Elaine® experience for Thrive Global

Healing Elaine® in Thrive Global

Laura is the kind of person I dream of meeting over — and over — and over again. she has clarity, she has love in her heart, and she thinks of others. these may seem like simple qualities, but they can be hard to find.

like each and every session I do, I find something incredibly special about the person I am with. Laura has gifts and vision that transcend the “seen”, and she is starting to open and explore them. one of the reasons we worked together was purpose-related — as a successful corporate executive who came from Google, and then started her own branding company, Laura could feel in her awakening process that there was more

I’ll let you read her article below about both pieces of our work together, as well as her own giving of birth to “Tune Into Your Vibe” — to be continued…

https://thriveglobal.com/stories/the-power-of-healing-the-energetic-body/

the below article first appeared in Thrive Global:

“A few years ago I shied away from the spiritual healing community because I didn’t get it— any of it. Since I didn’t understand the unseen concepts of energy work, my normal reaction was to sometimes make hippy-dippy jokes. During that time, I was building a corporate career and conforming to who I thought I was supposed to be and how I was supposed to be living. On the outside I was thriving, but on the inside I felt miserable and slowly started realizing I was chasing illusions and false promises. 

Even though I felt things heavily, all this talk of “manifestation” and “power of energy” felt foreign to me —  what does it all mean?  As someone who was raised completely by the books, it was hard for me to wrap my mind around the unseen world around us. So in turn, I adopted an “if I can’t see it then I can’t believe it” perspective. But here’s the thing — I was working with energy intensely every day, I just wasn’t fully tuned into what was actually happening to me. You won’t attune until you experience the phenomenons; when you start your own process of up-leveling and awakening. You won’t understand how energy actually works until you begin stepping upwards into your higher consciousness and connecting with others that live on your same frequency. And you won’t get there if you are lying to yourself, scared of judgment, or running the other way out of fear. 

Before I went through my personal awakening I didn’t recognize the energies impacting me because my mind was extremely brainwashed by judgment, manipulation, deception, and false beliefs. Little did I know at the time that the shifts I was always feeling — the ones resulting in panic attacks, out-of-nowhere depression spells, and insomnia — were all symptoms of energy exchanging. There were certain people I just couldn’t control my emotions nor panic around – people who left me feeling depleted, sad, and utterly confused.  I would write things off as me being overly sensitive, and I was told by doctors that I just needed to take anxiety meds, sleep aids, anti-depressants; basically any drug was thrown my way like cure-all-candy.

I went searching for answers in therapy sessions and yoga retreats, but there was still something unexplainable going on. No amount of xanax nor yoga ever made me feel like I was living in my own pure energy. Medication made me feel even more disconnected to myself and the world around me. The only time I felt at peace was when I was traveling to new places because I could pop out of my bubble and spend time soaking in pure self-reflection. I started picking up on what these overwhelming feelings really were – unhealthy energy exchanges – and I felt there was something universally bigger at the root of these heavy feelings. However, because of my environment and the people I felt obligated to tend to, I questioned myself and had to continue searching for validation. 

I knew I needed to connect with a true energy worker to help me get outta my funk and get my power back, which is when I connected with Aryn Elaine of Healing Elaine® (her page takes time to load from some devices and servers, but it’s worth waiting a full minute). Elaine is an incredible healer Bridging the Gap Between Medical & Spiritual™. Honestly, connecting with Elaine was the Universe at work because she’s hard to find and reach… literally. Almost all of her online pages have been taken down by force. She actually had her Yelp pages recently taken down overnight which included hundreds of 5-star reviews which you can see on her Instagram page under highlight stories. She is also hard to contact because she works extremely selectively; she has a protocol and prerequisites to ensure she only works with people of integrity at the right moment in time. 

Before I met Elaine I simply left her a voicemail with my first name only because that is her protocol. The connection and timing is all about energy aligning so she doesn’t need any personal information. The power of the unseen is serendipitous. When she called me back the next day, she already knew what I was going through because she felt the symptoms and vibrations energetically. She actually adopted physical symptoms mirroring my pain, and also knew the time was right. Right then and there I knew this work was so incredibly real and powerful. So what type of healing work does Elaine do? She has a unique ability to witness someone’s unconscious in action. Within their unconscious field, she sees various timelines of gaps and missing pieces that need to re-connect to the somatic memory in the physical body, to integrate and forge new consciousness. That is her modality and she can’t teach it. She believes there must be a tangible and intangible connection that creates an actual conduit for that healing. As she taught me, it’s physics.

Elaine helped me work through the challenges I was experiencing as a certain type of empath. There are so many empaths in our world, and so many different types of empaths who absorb energies from our environment in so many different ways (basically like energy sponges). She recognized that I was holding onto negative energies, subconscious fears, and false beliefs about myself that didn’t belong to me, which is why I was completely depleted and felt polluted. We worked together to release what didn’t belong to me so I could start reconnecting with my true self (which I totally forgot how amazing that felt). I finally understood everything I was experiencing which impacted me on every level — physically, emotionally and mentally. 

Everything about all of us is intertwined and connected. Immediately following my first session with Elaine I got a terrible migraine on the left side of my head which was 30+ years of brainwashing washing away. After that subsided, I felt like myself for the first time in years and experienced much-needed withdrawals, downloads, vibrations, and visions. The results were life-altering, but she also taught me that the ongoing self-healing work is never-ending. 

Prioritizing my energetic health through this type of unseen healing has changed my life and perspective. I am no longer submissive or scared to walk away from environments or people that deplete me. I am more clear-minded and focused on what brings me joy and stability. And guess what? No more meds nor panic attacks, and I finally feel the amazing benefits of yoga and meditation.  

Before I went through this healing I had recognized that the vibrations of working in a corporate environment did not align with my vibe, so I made the leap into entrepreneurship and started my own storytelling business. Although I was loving life as an entrepreneur and I love helping companies tell their brand story, something still felt “off” and I started to hit a wall. Elaine helped me realize that my true calling was not the business I started, but to use my own gifts to help others build a life of alignment and abundance through energy work. Thanks to her support and her ability to “see” me as I truly exist, I’m now in the process of building my own alternative wellness practice. I will be working with others on their own energy re-tuning to help them release the energetic anchors holding them back from living at their highest vibration. Let’s make you the author of your own book. Tune Into Your Vibe coming soon…

Just like we take care of our physical bodies and minds through exercise, diet, therapy, and mindfulness, we also need to take care of our energetic bodies. We can get so tied up in appearances and conformity, but energy is what we feel and how we connect with others and the world— we need to prioritize keeping our energy pure and shielded. Our well-being depends on it. “

by Laura Jane Haver

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a temporary way of contacting me — for new patient or new client inquiries

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please read my ABOUT section before making any inquiry.

due to the number of technological issues I have had, which includes much outside interference, I have listed a temporary way of contacting me within the body of the ABOUT section here. there is a method to the way that I work, and I am going to keep it; even if I have to temporarily modify it. please trust in my process.

if you are calling my business line 917-985-1221 but you can not leave a voicemail, or if you are getting forwarded to a “call center” (literally, it was just recently brought to my attention that my business line is “crossed” with a whole other phone number! — the phone carrier is examining the issue), then please follow the instructions in my ABOUT section protocol.

recently, on top of all other censorship which you may read about by key word searching the word censorship, all three of my yelp business pages and locations — NYC, LA, and Miami — were deleted (404). there are hundreds of reviews within them, and they reflect a decade of travel and work with incredible people who took the time to share their heartfelt experiences. while tragic, there will be justice and I will not stop until I get my property back (which I spent tens of thousands on over the years, just to make sure yelp would not delete my reviews as they initially did when I signed up). there are clearly a number of forces attempting to work against me, because of the specific nature and quality of my work; but, their intentions won’t ultimately work. forces can slow me down, forces can make me angrier (and stronger), and forces can juxtapositionally reveal themselves as I shine a light on them, but forces will never stop me. and when we work together, I show you how the forces that attempt to work against you will not only never stop you, but will ironically reveal incredible and unexpected gifts if you are willing to face and weather the truth of a storm.

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what’s really happening “out there”, right now

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the tables are turning. finally. dark is being eclipsed by light. finally. this is causing all kinds of behind-the-scenes wars. particularly within media and big tech. things are just not what they have seemed to be, to so many people.

our planet has always been run the same way — it’s just that we are finally seeing the truth of HOW it has always been run. we are seeing the truth because we can not hide from ourselves. we can not hide from ourselves, because technology is too advanced to allow it. how ironic! and, how ironic because those entities one might consider “most advanced” or powerful in tech or, rather I should say big tech and media (including entertainment), carry the most destructive but soon-to-be-revealed force. force is different from power (read my prerequisites). force doesn’t work. force is a farce that appears to work for a brief period of time. a brief period of time could be an actual millennium. either way, and ultimately, force crumbles. it breaks down. and the PHANTOM ENEMY that has been appointed BY FORCE as “The Enemy”, reveals as something…else. the projection screen that everyone has identified as the (phantom) enemy no longer appears to be the enemy as dark is eclipsed by light. and the real enemy emerges. right now, the real enemy is beginning to emerge — because, physics…

as this happens, we are going to see a MASSIVE crumbling of big tech and media as a whole. as a whole, they are our greatest enemy, our greatest offender, and until now, the most invisible one of all. there are many innocent people working within big tech and media, and they do not understand who and what they are actually working for. pay attention to what is going on within major companies — when and why certain C-Suites are stepping down and away. pay attention to who is selling their shares or their companies. pay attention to which institutions fund news channels of all kinds, and how the relationships between those parties changes. it will all become more obvious, because the BRAZEN ARROGANCE of our planet’s puppet masters (puppet masters: these people own and control big tech, media and entertainment) is just so incredible…this brazen arrogance is the blindspot of any totalitarian regime. it’s the one thing that no human can eclipse: the blindspot. this particluar blindspot of arrogance is going to reveal all.

many of the people whom you thought were the enemy, are not and never were. your entire perspective is going to change as truth reveals what your mind could not make sense of before. on a very important note: the more resolution you have with your PERSONAL trauma and your ability to see evil within your OWN life and the people close to you, the easier of a time you are going to have with all of the public domain truth that is coming your way. if you are still in trauma mode and projection mode, as I estimate 80% of human beings are, you are going to have a really hard time with the truth that is coming your way. it’s time to get clean and get clear, because nobody — and I mean NOBODY — can escape what is coming next.

live honestly. even if it “costs” you short-term. there is no escaping the karma that we create for ourselves and others.

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I need your help

Aryn Elaine Healing Elaine®

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as many of you who know me know, I have been dealing with unthinkable censorship since 2017 (brief backstory is here, on my Instagram page). after my websites were stolen and restricted, I was alerted to (foggy and hard to concretely prove) simultaneous censorship and shadow banning at the hands of media companies — namely, big tech / social media outlets and ISPs (internet service providers). while the story will ultimately tell itself, I am asking for as much help as possible with identifying where, when and how people can NOT visit my website. for example: after GOOGLE refused me the ability to advertise on its platform in multiple ways (I have this in writing) and refused my locations and many other things, it was noted that people using CHROME (a GOOGLE product) could not open my site; yet, they COULD open it in internet explorer or via another browser. this issue remains alive and unwell. the fact is, certain browsers and ISPs restrict my website. the “why” of this will come to you at a later time. what I need help with now, is the “when” and “where”…

I am asking everyone I know — assuming you even get to this page, on whichever device of yours — to please note whether or not you can open my website via mobile, desktop, chrome, or some other browser. I need to know which devices and browsers are slow, and which ones are not. I need all the data I can get. please ALSO ask your friends and colleagues who have never heard of me, to identify and record the same. I need both screenshots and videos of what is happening.

you can email healingelaineadmin@protonmail.com ONLY with evidence of NOT getting to my website. for all other questions please follow protocol and contact the business line directly at 917-985-1221. thank you in advance for being part of my positive mark in history. I sincerely appreciate any and all support.

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Healing Elaine® somewhat local retreat for former patients (only)

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this is a 3 day retreat that will take place roughly 1.5 hours outside of Manhattan. the format time-wise for this retreat is similar to past workshops, and it will span 2 nights and 3 days. the content covered will mirror that of my one-on-one sessions, and we will go naturally broader by introducing additional like-minded energies or similar experiences (other human beings) to your experience. I will limit this retreat to 4 people, and each person will have 1:1 time with me. since you already know me, I probably don’t need to explain much more.

this is happening soon, and you may call the business line at 917.985.1221 to schedule with me or ask questions.

since my phone lines seem to be having difficulties, please be sure to leave a voicemail — perhaps even two voicemails. I do not text message, and I have a new email address. direct calls are always best.

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