why pedophiles molest, the recent headline news of such, and my own experience

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while much of what I write about IS in fact heavy, or could be considered to be heavy by some, I avoid sensationalized topics/events/politics for a whole variety of reasons. that said, when I feel pulled from my core (not my mind) to write on something that comes close to what may serve as to some peace of mind for others, I write it. for example, I have a post about Hollywood that I wrote pre-HW (I don’t even like to write out their names) explosion, and right now that post is private. I am working on monetizing certain posts, because I give away SO much in my blog and certain posts should simply be monetized.

this morning, after meditating and gaging the so-called energy of the day, I opened my twitter account (I really avoid the news, in general, for the very good reason that I do not want it setting the tone for my day and a lot of it is pure garbage anyhow). the first thing I noticed was the interview and energy of one young woman named Jennifer. and for starters before I go into that, while I find particular movements to be valuable, I am also acutely aware of the fact that there are many people who take advantage of them. by lying. for MANY different reasons, too. blanket statements and movements are difficult in this way, and I prefer to look at EVERYTHING and everyone in life on a case by case basis. a person is different than a concept or an idea. they are an individual, made like no one else on this planet. it is important to see every person, and every situation, as totally unique. so when I saw Jennifer speaking to a news correspondent about her ordeal with JE (again, not interested in giving the vibration of this person’s name a platform here, but if you do watch the news and even if you do not, you can google it), I could almost feel the entire sequence of events that she went through. I don’t always feel that way, because there have been too many other people who LIE. on national television. to the world. because they are shameless and politically-driven. sometimes bought and paid for. obviously. anyway…

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when the student knows more than the teacher, taker energy, and borrowed essences

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there are many reasons I keep writing about the nuances of one main subject / notion / statement / principle: know what is yours, and what is not yours. the reasons are 1) personal experience – hey, I didn’t ask for it, but it is what it is 2) the incredible resonance it has for 90%+ of my former patients 3) the fact that literally someone in another time zone or country will book a session with me based on ONE blog entry alone. that’s sort of a big deal, in that what I am writing is reaching people. I don’t need for what I am writing to reach everyone, that part is not up to me. and, thankfully, I don’t care about who doesn’t connect to what I write. what I write is for those who connect to it versus oppose, criticize, or attempt to critically think about it (a-hem, I’ve done that part already). early on, I was afraid that my posts would only make sense to some people. and then, when I noticed that people were connected to the point of blind intuition and barely any logic, taking huge leaps of faith and making huge investments to work together, it occurred to me that my being in my own energy and just being exactly who I am without trying to match some nonexistent niche was everything I’ve ever needed to be. fyi, if you are reading this and want to know “how” to grow your company, I say this: find out who you are first. find out what you stand for. find your message. without any of that, and I mean it — you need all of it — there is nothing. just fluff. just like a ton of what we see floating around in the land of bought and paid for instagram followings etc. do you want to be a person with a million followers who can not sell 10 t-shirts?

the thing about authenticity (and it amazes me how many people use that word — I really don’t like using that word, it’s sort of like the word “narcissist” — totally over-saturated, and usually used by people who are themselves either totally inauthentic or narcissistic) is that it can not be taught. it can not be gleaned. it represents a person who just…IS. how can you teach someone to be who they are? you can not. they either are, or they are not. and it can become glaringly obvious, if you know what to look for. this is important, because it will allow you to spot — regardless of your business/trade/social life — taker energy. taker energy is the bane of this post, and yes that is something that can be taught to spot. it took me years. I’m still learning, even with my off the wall intuition. I will explain why, and how I teach people in sessions about how to look at the human condition pertaining to both psychology and energy. some of it will be vague, because of the incredible number of people who have used my concepts and tried to regurgitate them either in their own blogs or “teachings”, and because they only read about my concepts versus actually lived them, the information gets taken out of context. we can not match something unless we actually match it — reading or digesting information is not equivalent to actual experience. and it is the vibration of EXPERIENCE that allows me to vet who and when for my work.

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no one “important” is “off-limits”, if it’s really right to connect with them

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there is this unspoken (or, spoken?) myth that the most “important” or “successful” people are impossible to reach, and therefore probably not worth trying to reach.

the thing is, “important” or “successful” people have gatekeepers yes, and protocol yes, but when something is aligned, you would be surprised as to who might respond to you…if you do it the “right” way. and also if you are not unhinged in some way, or a stalker – very important.

how do we know when it is “right” to try and connect with someone who we may otherwise consider “too important” to want to give us the time of day? first of all, intention. what is your true intention for reaching out to person X? how do they relate to you or vice versa? what is your common denominator? what’s potentially in it for them, for you to reach out? you don’t need a tangible token to offer, per se, but you should have more than one thing in common. in order to clarify intention, we have to ask ourselves: “if this person had nothing to offer me, would I still want to connect?” – if the answer is yes, then you likely share something in common with them, beyond what the eye can see. if this is the case, your natural draw to them will supersede logistical bs (accolades, on-paper achievement, etc). the other thing is, very successful people are also very intuitive – despite what you may think about that. some of the top C-suites I’ve worked with have an eye for talent or intention in a way that totally rivals mine! in fact, I’ve been in the presence of such people who have more years on the planet than I do, and have sized someone up in seconds right in front of me — whereas it took me much longer. that said, that super important or successful person you want to connect with will have a natural radar to spot your intention — this is good news if you know what your intention is, if you can state what it is, and if that intention actually aligns to theirs. if it doesn’t, and you try to connect with them, perhaps it will align with them at another time. it doesn’t really matter though, because if your intention is clean then it will guide you regardless – and maybe you will find out that person is not a match to YOU.

the next part of knowing “when” to reach out, is the actual…WHEN. pairing alongside intention is timing. you have to look at yourself like a piece of fruit. when will you be the most ripe, according to your intention for reaching out to someone? for example. a year ago, I knew that certain parts (interests of mine) of me would ripen around Summer 2019 (now). although there were a number of people I really wanted to connect with a year ago (the people who might be too important or successful to want to talk to me), and my intention was on point, it wasn’t the right time. so I waited.

if we can lock down our intention and our timing, the only other thing to consider is whether or not the people we are looking to connect with require a certain protocol. this requires RESEARCH. now, not everyone’s protocol is readily obvious…but, we should do our diligence to understand whether or not it IS readily obvious. for example, go to their website. see if they are open to connecting with people, but if there is a particular “how” that they prefer. for example, I definitely have a how. after you do this, follow the protocol. if they do not have a protocol, then there is judgement that can be used as to how to connect via social media. perhaps sending person A a DM on twitter or instagram is a terrible idea, whereas it may actually work (I haven’t really heard of this though) for someone else like person B, IF your intention and timing are a true match to you (and them). other platforms like Linkedin are a solid potential, and I often do reach out to people in this manner. it gives them the opportunity to either wait, or politely decline an invitation or message without either party feeling offended. after all, it’s business…not personal.

finally, don’t be afraid to break the rules — I’ve had so many people get through to me at really random, but totally synchronistic times, even when I have called off certain work for a time. I’ve broken my rules on occasion because the person followed all of the other rules of mine, was totally conscientious, and it was just “right”. don’t be afraid, either, of being rejected…I get rejected all of the time. it is part of life. not everyone will like you or understand you — but it’s not personal. it’s just the mosaic of this very grey world we live in. keep trying. don’t get salty or bitter over it. breaking the rules — within reason and with enough honor — has afforded me opportunity I would never have otherwise gotten.

when I was young and wanted to be on a tv show, I didn’t know what the rules were for headshots and resumes. I also had no resume. I had a headshot that was totally not the industry standard, but I sent it to this one casting office anyhow — about once a month. for like a year! just my photo. two years later, I took a class with that casting director. upon entering the class, this person stopped talking to everyone who had shown up for the class and looked at me and then said “how do I know you!!??” — well…long story short, I was cast in my first network tv show and it was a highlight of my year (and my life). had I thought too much about doing things perfectly, or the fact that casting might laugh at my photo with hearts and stars stickers all over it sans resume, I might never have landed that tv show. thanks, Bob!

my concluding point here is that when we honor ourselves to the best of our ability and take risks, dreams can happen. if you don’t do it, someone else will. and you will watch someone else living out one of your (many – we all have many whether we recognize them or not, as recognizing them alone takes actual courage) dreams. today I am taking some chances with people who I think are maybe too important or successful to want to hear from me, because maybe I can’t offer them what they need or want right now. but you never know…it’s worked for me before. I recommend you try the same today!


how do you know when someone is lying to you? and here is my take on lying in general.

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brace yourself. this isn’t a simple post.

all humans lie at one point or many in their lifetimes. lying can keep people alive in dangerous situations. it can also create illness (I’m sure you know the very true quote, “we’re only as sick as our secrets”), chaos, and very bad karma — not just for the person lying, but for the person being lied to…

I’m going to talk more so about the importance of understanding when you are being lied to, so that you do not take on the karma of the person lying or of the lie itself. because believe me when I say this: WE BECOME WHO WE SPEND TIME WITH. WE BECOME WHO WE TALK TO. WE BECOME WHATEVER WE EXPOSE OURSELVES TO.

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intensive super luxury sessions only, and other general updates

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last year I took a very long hiatus from session work in general. I always give updates in my blog as to my status, as it pertains to things such as 1) remote sessions for past patients 2) former patient pop up sessions 3) new patient pop up sessions and so forth. right now, I will only book SLS work after June. that said, if you *follow protocol* – which means, you read the books, the blog, and you call for yourself not a 3rd party, please feel free to leave a voicemail between now and the end of this month for traditional session requests.

as I state repeatedly throughout my blog/site, I do not consciously “choose” these sessions — they happen, divinely, or they do not happen. if I really wanted to, or if I were a hack, I would work every day all day and be a cash cow. I just can not work when I “want to”, and I have explained many times over how that has caused quite the predicament for me at times — running 3 businesses alone (no investors, no hand-outs, no back-up) with a strong legal team and all of the fixings that a proper business has. I have thought, probably too often, whether my business flow (yes, there is always demand, but it has to be the “right” demand – if this makes sense to you, keep reading. if it doesn’t, hop elsewhere) had anything to do with some unconscious process or old trauma I was in…in terms of me saying no to extremely popular press, or turning down “huge” work opportunities only to struggle at times to pay the most basic bills. the answers, after (again, probably too much) self-introspection and regular top tier clinical therapy, are no…my work just is what it is. my clinical psychotherapist who is a renowned neuroscientist and a very brilliant man, calls what I “have” a “phenomena” (a founding father of many studies, he has been studying it in labs and so forth for several decades). well, this so-called phenomena is real, it’s not a joke, it’s not a trend, and if you can tell by the somewhat sassy slash strong tone of this blog post update, it’s not fun to have. what I DO love about it is that I get to truly help people — that is, people who WANT to be helped. yes, I have attracted a number of people who absolutely did not want to be helped. any healer, doctor, or helper of any variety has seen those folks. it takes time to “feel” the signals before you even meet them, to weed them out. it’s the same with people who lie. it can just take time to spot. that said, the folks who really did and do want help, that’s where my energetic investment is. and let me say something about that…

there is absolutely no price on peace and wellness. when I get “hit over the head” by some unknown force for days at a time, I know all too well “oh, a session is coming”. what does this mean? it means that I have not checked my voicemail for a few days, maybe even a week or two, because I was working with another individual or because I could not even handle the energy of listening to voicemails and picking up all that comes with listening to them (and the point there, is that we do not know what we do not know about energy…if you really knew how it traveled, what it looked like and what the end results were, you may never leave the house again). so, when I get “hit” — especially like I did this week, which was one for the books — I know someone is “coming”. this can mean a random synchronicity in which someone stumbled upon my site the night before calling, frantically read my pre req books and entire blog, and “knew” they needed to see me…what happened prior to that is the “phenomena”…our fields were meeting before we “spoke”. I won’t say more about it — considering first of all the number of hacks out there attempting to rip off my words and concepts, now that it is “cool” to be a healer or dare I say the word psychic — other than the fact that a session begins before I even call someone. often the phone number itself will tell me everything I need to know (nope, I’m not any sort of schizotypal – this is real, and with some “luck” will be doing some studies on it with people far more credible in the clinical world that I am) without even speaking with the person. I will know “this is the one”. again, this is not about someone being better or worse than another person in terms of calling them — especially considering I know nothing about them –, it’s about divine timing and alignment. this, in a nutshell, is how my business is driven. and I’ve said it before, and I will say it again: I don’t care who you are, how famous you are, how important you are, how much money you have, how nice you are, etc — I do not want to know anything about you prior to or during your call, and any earthly logistics will not sway my decision to working with someone. if this were logistics only, I would be booked to high heaven every day for the rest of my life. and I would probably die on day 5.

I am aware of the fact that I am in a bit of a sass mood at the moment and it’s probably coming through here (for those of you who know me, anyway), but it is really important for me to get this out and explain it for those who get it – both past and present. there is a sensitivity that lives in me that I have not found with another person. I often wish it were not so, as I am not trying to be different or better or special — all I have ever wanted is to live like a normal person. being made this way is something I could only endeavor to show through a creative lens — which is why much of my focus is going back to film and television. that is the second part of my focus shift, very much alongside my TEM® and PE™ initiatives/services (which can much more easily incorporate media since I will not allow it with my private one on one session work — and yes, I have gotten all of the reality TV show phone calls out there. thanks but no thanks). it is time to change the channel and show more than tell. it’s not something that could have happened overnight, and again it has to be “right”. with the right people. I’ve spent a lifetime weeding out the wrong people. I don’t come from a place where compulsive lying or jealousy exists — I do not get it. I’ve had to learn how that is an actual “thing” for many people. I’ve questioned, many times, especially in therapy, how growing up around crazy people handicapped me — and after thousands of meetings with different individuals and many clinical individuals, I am almost relieved to understand that it’s not so much/entirely my past that creeps in…rather it’s more of who I am — my absolute core — as a person, that doesn’t necessarily fit with seemingly mainstream tolerance for low morale. I am solely seeking those who resonate with the notions I describe, and I have been SO BLESSED the last month or two IN PARTICULAR, to attract only that. the reason that I am flipping over to solely SLS work at this time is because 1) I run 3 businesses and I would like to keep them running and I need the work and 2) working with 1 person at a time versus 3 or 4 is much less heavy on my energy field and 3) giving someone undivided focus for a month and a half is a real win for them and 4) I will have a bit more free time to focus on my other initiatives. and yes, my hourly fee is actually normal — I just do not do one two three etc hour sessions. in addition, you can not quantify my work in an hourly fashion, despite my doing so for quantifiable work only (my in person, phone and email time) for invoices and businesses that request such. so, if you have been reading along in this here blog, I’ve had lots of interesting twists and turns over the last 2 years in particular, all of which have brought me to this new point and energy, which I must say feels fantastic.

here is the run-down for anyone connected to me at the moment from the past, and I will reiterate the run-down for those potentially connected to me in the future: last December I offered remote sessions for former patients at a holiday rate. those (already purchased) may be used at any point until the end of this year 2019. that’s 1. 2, is this – if you are a former patient of mine and you want ANY kind of service, June is likely the month to schedule it. I do have some press coming up and my fear is that everyone will be suddenly “interested” when it feels appealing to be interested — please consider this now, before that happens. I likely won’t have time for the same things again. what I offer to former patients is occasional house-call pop up sessions or destination sessions, and remote sessions. if/when you book, we can discuss an appropriate timeline/schedule (as in, you can keep one in your “back pocket” for a period of time), so don’t worry. I always want to support and cater, to the best of my ability, to those I’ve already worked with. also, I am SO GRATEFUL for the amazing people I have worked with, all of you are along for a ride, if you can be patient and see what is around the bend. finally, 3 – the main point of this blog post. until the end of this month, I will accept traditional session inquiries. I am no longer doing any pop ups for new patients. those are over. the traditional session mimics a SLS, you have your private space for the night, and it encompasses many hours of work. if you ask me to get it beneath a certain amount of time, it won’t happen. you wouldn’t realize why until after we met. it is like opening pandora’s box, and I won’t work with a feeling of a lack of completion. now, there have been a couple of very rare unicorns who have done pop ups and gotten EXACTLY what they needed. in fact, almost every pop up session, that has occurred. but it still runs over a week, there is still “I want to know more” that follows one, and pop ups are not going to fit into my schedule coming up so I have to nix them. but again…I am SO grateful for those of you I have done either pop up or abbreviated work with. you know exactly who you are! and for folks from the past, yes, the pop up work is still available for you pending my availability to do so. so, that leaves us with SLS. “how can anyone afford that, Elaine!!!?” — yes, you would be surprised who has said that to me. well, guess what? people afford it. if I can afford to share a month and a half of my life and energy field and expertise with someone, and they can afford to cram 60 or so hours of clinical therapy or other consulting work into a month and a half with me, then we can both afford it. also, I’ve learned, resources are everywhere. often in the strangest places. don’t judge the people who write my reviews or appear in videos (more to come, by the way!) in terms of them having or not having 5 figures to spend. you never know someone else’s way of living and how or why. and, not that I have ever needed to defend my fees, but I have a rather regular fee per hour. I’ve also learned (both the hard way and not the hard way) that I do something almost no one (as far as I know, and as far as the folks I see know — and believe me, they have looked) else does — that counts for something. someone’s very life force counts for something. so yes, you would be surprised as to who shells out the big bucks for genuine, legitimate consulting and healing work. I’m not doing what every other person out there claims to do, and if I could reverse my “phenomena” I actually would. I can’t.

both personally and professionally over the past year in particular, I have learned my value. part of the sass in this post lends itself to that. because here is the thing. when you have a valuable person, and they don’t KNOW they are valuable (child abuse, something else, etc), it’s like candy for those around them (those without a lot of integrity). that valuable person will get eaten and eaten, but eventually their value OBVIOUSLY lends itself to their intrinsic consciousness and they begin to wake up…albeit if slowly. be careful with valuable people — one day, they might find out and own their value. this is always fascinating to me, to watch people of value wake up and change their lives simply through their own consciousness (and without any action at all, other than the act of realization). when we learn our value, we stop letting other people take things from us. I stopped a lot of things. I used to want to “take people with me” in the “healing” or “metaphysical” worlds, because I love/d seeing others in joy. then I realized that I was usually alone in that sense — a lot of people want to be the “best”…they are not interested in truth. most people live in their heads, not their hearts — and they will tell you all day until they are blue in the face how they live “authentic” lives. it’s so incredible to observe. and so I learned to stop running around puffing wind in everyone’s sails, just because it made me happy to see them happy — I learned that not everyone was like me. and this may sound naive, and perhaps I am naive in some senses, but it’s my truth. and the thing again with value is, it doesn’t stay hidden forever…because value is akin to truth. truth is akin to power. the opposite of that is force, and we all know what that does. ultimately force is revealed — without power having to flex even a finger. and so I’ve learned that I don’t have to help everyone, I don’t need a neon sign on my door that lets anyone in just to be a cash cow, and I can and must protect my own God-given “phenomena” slash gifts, if you will. I keep my blog open and free, and many of the posts I will start closing off for a nominal fee starting soon. I don’t have to give everything away, though I really do want people who will never see me to benefit from what is there pro bono.

recently I had a tarot reading with my favorite lady; she’s hidden, won’t advertise, not into being a “show”, and does serious crime work with pd. she told me “honey, you can make money by having fun…that’s what the cards are telling me you need to do right now”…and I know this. but ever since I was little, I did not amount to anything unless I was problem solving, saving, being used as a shield or a whipping post or a blame, being responsible for others mentally spiritually emotionally and physically, etc. I am still learning that I am enough without being all of those things. my very birth and existence catered itself around learning an overdeveloped “second language” of intuition to survive absolutely ridiculous and toxic environments. and so here we have the “phenomena”.

having fun to me means creating…my love for helping others, whether it was an intrinsic survival skill or not, will never die. but there are new ways to do it, ways that don’t cause me to settle in life, ways that kill two birds with one stone. like everyone else, I want to be comfortable, I want to live in joy, and I don’t want to subscribe to the theory that I have to suffer in order to live well. knowing this consciously is great — very few of us know it otherwise.

long-winded post summary: new changes are coming for me, and I’m wrapping up a cycle this fine month of June. you know what to do if you made it through reading this. my life is changing again. if I offered you a remote or a favor or hand out a long time ago, please don’t reach out in 6 months or a year asking for it, unless you purchased it in December when I offered remotes. please respect the fact that for ANY intuitive, there must be an “end” time to each session — even if two parties are not corresponding via email or phone. there is ALWAYS an unconscious exchange happening and it should be respected. even my numerologist has an end time on his readings at which point the follow up call will expire and there will not be another option for one. it’s a relief to see someone else with a similar field resonance as mine. we can only pull others’ energy along for so long before it weighs on us and affects our health, and I have certainly already been down that road. I feel like these are very basic human respect elements, though some folks do not see healers/helpers in that light. it’s time to (relatively speaking, of course) understand this and treat this work like any other consulting business out there. I hope that my personal shares resonate with those of you out there who I know (I know those of you who will really get this), and those of you whom I don’t know but whom connect on a level beyond logic. that level is real. it’s being studied. we are a long way from dissecting and explaining it, but that is a huge huge mission of mine in this life. and the tangibles of it will come. maybe not while I’m still young and fluffy, maybe when I’m grey, but mark my words when I say: it/they will come. one day we will understand things we never thought existed in the first place.

I look forward to my closing sessions as well as future SLS work! and I definitely look forward to seeing those of you from the past for remote work and pop up work. and finally, I look forward to connecting with all of you in a way that I haven’t done before…you’ll see what I mean, one day!


free will, destiny, and surrender in the face of “stagnation”

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we have all gone through periods of time during which it seemed we could not be more STUCK. perhaps we asked ourselves, “what more can I possibly do to shift this? why won’t it shift?” – or, perhaps we took no action at all, still hoping that the stagnation would shift. the point of this article is, how do we know when we have done “enough” – and we should sit back and let “destiny” take its course, versus when we really need to bust some logistical (and otherwise) moves? and how does the notion of surrender factor into this?

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a wave of pattern breaking and new energy is here.

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both personally and collectively I am recognizing years or lifetimes of patterning within the human self, obliterating.

it is a beautiful time for many of us right now. keep in mind that the word and notion “beautiful” is up for grabs in terms of how you want to interpret it. for example, if you are sincerely detached from the material world (as in, maybe you enjoy it, even strive for it in different ways, or cultivate it daily, yet it does not define your happiness), the ability to focus within is greater – it is only within this space that we can notice inner alignment and growth. when we are distracted by things that don’t matter (mostly the fleeting, material world), we are put at a disadvantage because this distraction busies the mind in a thwarting fashion. often, when we are distracted by things that don’t matter, we will 1) lose everything material 2) go through a personal dark night — in order to tune us into our inner world. it is within that world that we can actually and accurately hear and see ourselves — as well as our progress, or lack thereof.

by “progress”, I mean simply that we are here as individuals to progress. if we are not progressing, we are dying; we have either become distracted by things that do not matter, halting our growth, or we have refused growth. we are not here to regress, but to progress. this is INTERNAL. it is intrinsic to being a live human being — the higher self’s desire for progress. of course the word is relative. in theory of relativity there is NO comparison to the outer world, or the perceived outer world of another person’s life. and this past week, I noted progress – both within myself, and shared with me by many others.

this particular progress that I’ve witnessed and noted within myself is years of a specific pattern of fear. it’s GONE. I’ve written from my insides out in my blog for years now, because I believe in showing my personal growth versus telling it only in the aftermath; and if you have been reading or go back and read through it, you will note various fears that I have both consciously AND unconsciously expressed. over the years of sharing my own inner world and working with many people, I’ve been curious as to whether that one “moment” would exist for me, in which I would say “Eureka! it’s gone! this long pattern I wanted gone is gone!”. I was never attached to an outcome, because that is not how journeys and life work. the moment we surrender and detach from how we believe things must look and happen for us, they move. it is within the constant surrender that life works FOR us.

there are two specific threads of what I will call my “former life” (specifically prior to October 2018 in which I hit the tail end of another massive dark night and personal shift — it was sober, long, quiet, and harder than any other personal shift I have ever gone through) patterning. the threads are beliefs that, I knew at least consciously, are not true. I had sort of resigned to having these beliefs slash fear spores in or around me forever – this is not because I was lazy, but because I was surrendered. I also did not think that the day would come when I felt like a completely different person (AGAIN). throughout these past few weeks, and notably with personal measurement THIS week, I see that this new person within me has emerged. I’m not the only one…

people who I worked with years ago, and who keep in touch with remote sessions / pop ups etc, reached out all week to say “hey Elaine, you won’t believe this but…that THING that bothered me for so long, that was a block…IT’S GONE!”; and I said, “me too. me too.”

since the early 2000s I’ve really understood and tuned into the earth’s energy and where we were headed as a collective. it was almost like seeing entire pods of energy either coming to life, or dying…based on how people were choosing to life. I saw and felt in my own right that our planet’s energy was changing, and that people who were “living right” were going to have an easier time coming up…and that those who were spiritually lazy were going to fall. now by “easier time coming up”, I don’t mean that it looked perfect or even good in the interim; I understood that in a death, there are nasty details that we go through before we rebirth. this can be a series of rebirths, or that “big” whammo one that we are all looking for — the one I write about today as the topic, and this is the “one” that typically takes years to suddenly then recognize “overnight”. at any rate, I’ve felt the dial that mother earth has been tweaking each and every year since about 2000. we have really moved in periods of 4s, in my interpretation of the pattern waves. I am not an astrologer or a numerologist, but I do enjoy and subscribe to those reportings because they line up with what I “see’ and feel.

in the early 2000s, my grandmother sent me some antiquated report on “biorhythms” and how our personal cycles run. well, that helped me to understand that what I was seeing and feeling for myself and our collective was rooted SOMEWHERE. if you had asked me in high school or college what biorhythms etc were, I would have side-eyed and gone back over to my big bottle of wine. this is to say that the woo woo was not part of my life — and yet it WAS. I didn’t subscribe to the external context of which we consider “new age” now, yet it subscribed to me. does that make sense?

I am digressing a bit, but a larger point will be made. first of all, the majority of the people I see for my work also do not subscribe, and certainly not outwardly, to the woo woo or the unseen or the “new age” that has become so (annoyingly to me) trendy. yet, like me, the unseen — the physics of our individual and collective karmic states — subscribe to the people I see for my work. that is really, really important to consider when we consider where our planet is headed…

this bleeds into the revelations and new experience of life that I am having in recent months, all due to the very *complete* inner shifts that have occurred after all of these years. I have always said that truth is physics, and the physics of this planet will birth truth whether we like it or not, and whether we believe it or not. I have also made analogies to tech and A.I. (and during some of my consulting for such – yes, you would not believe how linked these subjects are: truth, consciousness, physics, TECH, and spirituality…) that support the fact that we can NOT go backwards as individual hence collective souls. of course our collective is a big collage of light and dark – contrast is what keeps us alive. breathing. walking. when folks ask me the reason for dark/evil, it is always this reason: without contrast we die — or move into nonphysical. at any rate, FEELING into this emergence of truth and lighter way of living collectively (keep in mind that personally, each person has free will, so those who choose OUT of truth repeatedly won’t necessarily experience truth in the way they desire) has been so acutely in my rear view mirror for so long. and I feel like we have just hit a new plateau with it — within our ego and consciousness — and new external realities are being built as a result.

back to this new energy…for so long I have wanted to feel certain (new) things. I’ve wanted the outcomes of my own patients, for myself: seeming happy U-turns. and I’ve got them now. the strongest, scariest and most life-sucking beliefs that I have held are…gone. there are two personal themes I’ve released. of course I (we) carry many. who knows what is next. but this particular breakthrough, that not so coincidentally some of my beloved patients who have been working on themselves for years are sharing with me, is a really clean, new, and exciting feeling. I know that my often cryptic way of communicating via writing only resonates with certain people — and that’s fine, it’s an excellent filter for my work — and my intention is for YOU, if you resonate with this (even if you are new to my work and don’t understand everything I am saying – by the way it is the energy and essence of me, of my consciousness that will resonate or not) to let you know that a new energetic domain or portal is truly here right now.

if we completely collapse the idea of time and space, we find infinite possibility; the best way to do this, of course, is to get into a timeless (meditative) state daily. we can bend time, change experiences, and do all kinds of things. I have to check with my numerologist and read my astrology reports to confirm, but I sense an unchartered domain for myself and for many I’ve worked with and stayed connected to. it’s simply pleasant. that is the main point of this post: pleasantries are upon us. especially if we have been TRYING…

I am a broken record talking about the physics of karma, all of the time. but I just can not stress enough, how the Universe opens for us when we honor ourselves and others. and I can not stress enough how the Universe thwarts and rejects us when we do not honor ourselves and others (do not get confused with a dark night of the soul as a result of honoring yourself! it can be easy to think you are doing something wrong, when you are indeed not). for example. there are now dozens of people who I’ve set up, nearly frame by frame, businesses and healing practices for. aside from serving as their inspiration, I walked and hand held many people through the process of even having enough courage to present themselves in the “healing” or ethereal domains. I’ve never attached myself to anyone’s business, because it’s never felt right. I like to do a lot of it quietly for many purposes, and I also do a lot of pro bono work. that said, I’ve been drawn or rather certain people have been drawn to me, in order to violate — with giant ego — divine gifts and heart. in a nutshell, some folks did some of the outrageous shit after taking what they could from me (also a now broken pattern in my life – YAY!) and starting their “spiritual” companies or practices. one person in particular (I’ve been like a child at times – I just didn’t see certain things coming because I could never imagine not honoring someone who helped me) with an apparently huge ego decided that if I wasn’t going to do xyz and help a random person as a “favor” to them, that I was completely written off. this person lied about how and why they entered the spiritual domain, their entire life path, and how their “company” came to be. it wouldn’t have bothered me, even all of the above, if this did not come on the heels of a manipulation. this person basically said “I’ll show you, Elaine” — and then the ticking time bomb began. I knew right away what this person had done to themselves, and it would only be a matter of time before their paid-for instagram following etc etc etc imploded — along with their entire life. if we build “authenticity” on a lie, it crumbles. it we willfully violate another person, WE crumble. there are so many silly rabbits out there! and sure enough, within just about a year and a half of said ego-maniac’s plight into the “spiritual” and other public domain, it’s a wrap. their entire life fell apart, only worse than before — and it won’t stop until they stop. we can not take things that are not ours, walk on people who have only been kind to us, and expect to walk freely. the Universe won’t allow it. when I see this happening, or someone directs something like this toward me, all I can do is pray for them. I actually feel badly FOR them, because I know what they have just done. unfortunately I have a handful of these experiences to count, but I know that God has used me as a tool in each case. whether people learn from it or not is up to them, but the fact remains: KARMA IS PHYSICS. PHYSICS IS TRUTH. I’m blue in the face now.

I couldn’t be more excited about the domain that I am in, and the one that many of my patients “made it through” to, and are making it through to. it is becoming less about extreme problems and difficulties (because we have been working on ourselves for so long), and more about…WHAT CAN WE CREATE? the creation stage is here.

if we worked together a long time ago and you read this, I hope you resonate. if you don’t, keep going. remember that the truth within our own self wins and creates a butterfly effect (eventually). I’ve waited a lifetime to feel the way that I do within myself now, and I wasn’t sure that I would ever feel this way. there are still plenty of things to work on, plenty of things that are “wrong”, but there has been a seismic shift and I couldn’t be happier to be in this fresh domain.


Healing Elaine® Bahamas retreat May 24 – 27

Healing Elaine® in Nassau, Bahamas – photo by Pia Oyarzun for Forbes Magazine

this is our next stop. this retreat is open to former patients only. it will run similarly to a 3-day workshop in terms of thematic subject coverage, but it will nonetheless be very different from those of mine that you may have attended in the past…

I will spend one-on-one time with each person in abbreviated session format. we will convene on the beach. in the yoga room. under the stars. we will share our growth and goals, and the re-birthing process that got us from A to B. exciting twist: we will wrap it up with a professional photoshoot for each person, with the intention of capturing the essence of the business that each person has/is building/WANTS TO BUILD. as many of you know, those I work with (this has been happening from day one) often leave their jobs, or bridge NEW passions aka “jobs” or endeavors with their current posts. I want to continue to help cultivate and inspire each person I work with to expand to the next space in queue for them and EXECUTE in 3d terms. so, if you have a new business idea you are thinking of, or you just can’t seem to “move” your passion/endeavor to the next level, or you do not know where to start with articulating your next passion but you know it’s there, this will open your mind. it does not matter what stage you’re at. that said, be prepared to step out in front of the camera! your next steps want to be met with the world sensing your energy through your physical essence…which is ALWAYS evolving and morphing. you are not the same person you were last year, last week, or even an hour ago. our focuses will cover many subjects, obviously including precursors (aka blocks) to the above. let’s make some new things happen, in a magical geographic space.

if you are interested and can make these dates, ring the HE line and leave a voicemail. I will accept up to 3-4 people for this to keep it focused, and harvest the right group.


rejection is protection, part Infinity

photo by Anita Saini

I’ve addressed this topic more times than I can recall; in my blog, in sessions, in countless conversations with all kinds of (amazing) people — rejection is protection, always, in every case. it just depends upon our ability to perceive the protection dynamic…

for starters, I understand first-hand what it means to be my own worst enemy and take things personally when it comes to being “rejected”. I might venture to say that, many times in the past, I created rejection scenarios to impose upon myself when they didn’t really exist to begin with. what created those scenarios was my interpretation of events. in order to understand my interpretation, read this blog from the beginning and you will find countless self-share examples that explain my experiences and subsequent wiring that had to be altered in order to live out who I AM. instead of who I am NOT…

I understand how the brain protects itself — by interpreting rejection as actual rejection when it is not such — in order to “keep the entire body and brain alive” by repeating patterns that at one point DID ensure survival. but what happens when we move closer to detaching from the once-necessary pessimism that literally kept us alive? well what happens is, we encounter “rejection” to the MAXIMUM…to kill off a dead-end belief or entire belief system. in this space, we are challenged with the ultimate rejections, and in many cases, a series of rejections. they feel real. they don’t feel like protection. they ARE protection. every time…

the very fact that we can not perceive the beauty of rejection as a metaphor for incredible and divine protection is evidence that our self-image needs to change. we ALL face (perceived) rejection. each and every one of us. it’s what tethers us to unhealthy patterns that we repeat in business, home, social, and beyond. if we dare look beneath the pattern, which many of us simply will never do, we find our deepest fear and ASSOCIATION with what we consider to be “rejection”. and when we get closer to unhinging – or rather our soul declares we must unhinge – a belief that is holding us hostage to a past situation, we attract “rejection” aka protection to the most ultimate extreme. it is in the sheer seeming ABSURDITY of said “rejection” that is our first and main indicator that perhaps…we are being protected.

as we get closer to ending a pattern, rejection will accumulate to such a degree that we are so humbled that there is just no more fighting it. we almost do not care about the feelings we once associated with the perceived rejection, because we are bowled over with the absurdity of such. have you ever been in a position in life in which the only available remaining response to your position was laughter? no matter how life-threatening, how dire, how horrendous — laughter was the only option because it felt like a big joke and there is no way that God could be that cruel? this is the turning point of recognizing rejection as actual protection. and it is in this space that we actually RISK changing our mind about what is happening. because, we are the common denominator…and, what if there is something “right” about us, that is at play here?

what is “right” about us will scare off the demons. literally. demons might present THROUGH others, and their actions, versus actually BE others. it’s important to recognize that someone’s behavior is not necessarily who they are, but that it is indeed either helping us or killing us with little room for negotiation between the two motives. and in that behavior, we may struggle to negotiate or understand their conscious intention versus their unconscious intention…creating illusion around the core point of our experience with another person or situation because INTELLECT is separate from the unconscious mind. what is “RIGHT” about us will seem to completely be honored by intangible forces in a particular situation yet COUNTERED by the logic of it. that means that, “this makes no sense!!!!! I can’t get my head around it!!!!”, but this also means that, “there is something so strong, too strong, too repetitive and loud about what is happening here, I must consider trusting it”…

what is “right” about us will exaggerate the experiences that we have with others that would be considered “rejection” experiences…to the point in which we actually turn the page and risk seeing the truth: that we are being protected.

I’ve had this conversation more in the past 9 months than ever before in my life. my personal life presented SO MANY experiences over the past fiscal year that appeared DAUNTING — I felt that I was absolutely being rejected by the entire Universe, as well as specific individuals who did not honor or respect me. some of these people I had looked up to as semi-guides, helpers, friends, — those I thought would be along for the ride with me for life with regard to my work and soul’s purpose. I was wrong — or rather, God did NOT want me to ride with certain people anymore. and it wasn’t just people. it was ALL KINDS of situations in life in general that had expired. doors were slamming and locking in my face. and as much as I know, and have been through on this front already many times over in the past, one can never be prepared for their entire life to change for the better…because all of the swampness comes up and OUT before it does. we see it leave. we watch and feel it leave. we grieve it. and we assign it unfortunate meaning, until we do not assign it that meaning.

in the past fiscal year I’ve faced more difficulty than ever before in my life, with “rejection” — aka PROTECTION. as I’ve had many rounds with this notion already, I did KNOW what was happening. however, at a pinnacle moment around the fall of last year, I briefly lost sight of the positive aspects of protection that were being sent my way by dismantling ALL KINDS OF THINGS AND RELATIONSHIPS. it had reached comedic proportions. the literal front door of my apartment building LOCKED ME IN one night — as in, the door lock broke, locked me in, and there was no out. although I was experiencing one of the most difficult periods of my life, I marveled at the symbolism gifted to my by the Universe: I was being PROTECTED. the Universe said “you may not walk through this door again”. and so, as life does, I experienced the ultimate forms of protection in all kinds of ways: bad behaviors from others, screw-overs, broken trust, disappointments, and shocking loss. and at the end of it? I emerged as a different person. because I had no choice left but to understand this, again, as PROTECTION. at the peak of my brokenness, I wrote this post on betrayal and it still resonates in my gut when I re-read it.

this morning I had two conversations with AMAZING WOMEN who are recently climbing out of “rejection” and now able to see it as PROTECTION. as I always say: NOT ALL ENERGY IS EQUAL. it doesn’t matter what something looks like: we know not what resides underneath that 3D surface. there are all kinds of amazing reasons for all kinds of terrible things. and in my conversations today I was reminded double-time as to why I went through some of the very most ridiculous shit of my life last fall and winter. it was fodder to help those also on the crux of that exact precipice. it was to ensure: not only am I better, lighter, happier as a result of my “rejections”, but I am GROUNDED as hell and literally not the same person I was 9 months ago. doors that did not serve me, in all forms, were closed FOR me. there comes a point in time in which we must CHOOSE how to view these disappointments versus think we can intellectualize why things happen…this is the human trap — figuring it all out instead of LIVING IT ALL OUT.

I find that the most INCREDIBLE people I know have gone through the most incredible “rejection” aka protection to land where they are (in great places that many people covet). the hazing associated with understanding how to interpret rejection as protection is legit. and it is reserved for the few who are able to shift their consciousness, move out of victim consciousness, and literally choose a new life. a lot happens before we can perceive rejection as protection — a lot happens on internal psycho-emotional levels. and you can read about that process in other posts of mine, scattered throughout this entire blog. but I wanted to share today, AGAIN, about the raw fact surrounding “rejection”: IT NEVER IS.

recently I’ve had a ton of type A people aggressively approach me because they see things that they think they “want” or can “take” (see my eBooklet 3 – what they really want is intangible, they just have not figured that out yet!) — and I already know the drill. I know that they are going to come at me hard and fast, pitch me a sales pitch to convince me that I should do xyz (so that they can benefit, only it’s presented as a mutual benefit), and then find out that they CAN’T actually get xyz thing…because you can’t absorb or steal someone else’s consciousness. and in each of these encounters, they run away when they can’t find the “benefit” for themselves…mostly because they are not sure what they are running toward in the first place. they see a shiny penny and they aren’t sure how that penny shines, but they want/think they can glean the secret formula. these types of people always see the outside of me/my work, and never the inside of me/my work. these are not patients of mine, these are real-world folks. all the ones who think strategically but NOT intuitively and believe that they can monetize me…except they have no understanding of what is being monetized — clearly, that is where *I* come in and how I get paid. it’s not a trinket I can sell to someone. and in all of the many situations I’ve experienced with others who thought they could cherry-pick off my tree for free and actually gain something, I’ve had the choice in each instance as to how to perceive what’s happened. as typically what happens when someone realizes they can’t get something for free, they depart. departure can feel like abandonment or rejection. it’s not. it’s protection from people who do not have best interests in mind because they don’t understand a certain energy. and my default is now set to the point, thanks to having gone through this in SO many categories of life, of absolutely bypassing any emotion or internalized personalization of what’s occurred. it’s never rejection anymore. I never feel bad about it. it’s always protection. and when we have something unique, something important, it’s “of course” that not every random Joe off the street can or should understand our commodity. in this sense, we are being protected from wasting time, energy, and so on. and I am grateful to be in a place where there feels absolutely nothing “personal” about this and is certainly not even close to rejection in my interpretation. I see it a mile away, watch it play out, and smile at how it has not a shred of “rejection” essence to touch within me. it just doesn’t exist in me anymore. this is a 180 from how my life began and how I continued it for years out of “survival” and outdated agreements with my mind-adrenaline.

allow people to disappoint you. screw you over. hurt you. offend you. steal from you. THEY ARE IN YOUR LIFE TO SHOW YOU WHAT YOU ARE NOT, if only you can stop committing to what they symbolize for you. what they take away with them, is your old wounds. it takes a full magnet of darkness (that person or situation) to pull out the fragmented marbleized darkness hanging out within your psychological, emotional and physical astral/spheres. when the fragments that have been assigned to you by others who have nothing to do with your path are removed by others who also have nothing to do with your path, you can understand protection. this is where the ultimate freedom, and even unconditional love for all things, exists.

rejection is protection. always. you’re better than you think. probably an anomaly. a Unicorn. a treasure. in that sense why WOULD the world understand you right off the bat? you’re being asked to understand the WORLD. allow yourself to be assassinated in all kinds of ways in order to re-discover, or discover for the first time, who you actually are. protected.


Healing Elaine® mini-retreat for former patients 4.19, 4.20, 4.21

photo by Jennifer Santaniello

we will be about an hour outside of the city. this spot in particular is one of my most favorite locations in the Northeast.

the mini-retreat will run similarly to a workshop; 3pm-9pm Friday, 3pm-9pm Saturday, and 3pm-9pm Sunday. all lodging and all dinners will be included. each person will receive a private/individual healing built into the weekend. since we have worked together before, this is an opportunity (perhaps in lieu of a pop-up) to go deeper for a longer period of time, and connect with a couple of my other patients. this mini-retreat will host a couple or a few people. since this is a holiday weekend with some of my FAVORITE numerology (and one of my favorite holidays), AND a full moon on the 19th, we really have some super tailwinds assisting us here.

call 917-985-1221 and leave a voicemail if you are interested.